I love mature men

Although I grew up in a very small family with just my stepfather, Papa, my extended family on my mother's side is very large, with large numbers of uncles and cousins. My uncles all know about my upbringing as a girl, and occasionally (just two or three times every year) when they visited Papa and I they noticed that at home I was in girls clothes. 

They asked Papa why. Of course Papa wouldn't tell them he was having sex with me, and he gave them the simple answer that since my cock was so very small, and I was so soft and timid, it would be in my interest to train me to be  a girl, and amid their laughter, they chatted about how I could ever get hard with a penis no longer than 2 inches - and  as they were chatting, they often asked me to pull off my skirt to let them see my small cock....and my very white butt and thighs...and I noticed that my uncles all got very hard when Papa asked me to get down on my knees to serve them tea butt bare. 

I did hear that some of my uncles asked Papa for permission to have sex with me, but that was always turned down since Papa said that I was after all a boy and getting down on my hands and knees to be fucked was just for real girls. Papa sounded so morally decent that my uncles never ever dared to ask to have sex with me again. 

Now that I am working as escort, my uncles are among my most supportive patrons. They like having sex with me  -- with me being  dressed like the way I used to ...in male sweater...and they insist that I must at all times spread out my legs wide for them to see how FLAT I was down there, with my cock having already been cut off. 

THEY TELL ME THAT PAPA HIMSELF WOULD LIKE TO HAVE ME BOOKED, BUT JUST DIDN'T HAVE THE COURAGE TO FACE THE SITUATION BECAUSE PAPA BLAMED HIMSELF FOR HAVING MADE ME BECOME WHAT I AM NOW, AN ESCORT WHO EVERYBODY LOOKS DOWN UPON. 

One day, while having me penetrated in my asshole, one of my uncles...a fat, bald middle-aged man with just primary school education....asked me to allow him to take a picture of me, with my legs widespread to show that my cock had been cut off...so he could show the picture to Papa, because Papa would very much LIKE to see my bottom, he not having seen or touched it for so long since I left home after university. 

Then several weeks afterwards, my uncle returned, passing me a handwritten note by Papa, which read  : 'Thank you Jennifer...would it be all right for me to have you booked and then have you fucked ?'

 I passed the note to Master but Master said no, because He didn't like Papa for not having me castrated much earlier, leaving the 'MESS' for Him to clear. When I told my uncle that Papa was not allowed to have me booked, my uncle felt so disappointed, because he said that if I had agreed, Papa would have given him USD 300 as reward for getting me back.

As I was growing up as a boy, one thing I missed out most was the chance to grow body hairs, all over, if possible on my chest and all over my legs. Papa would have me whipped if I did not carefully shave  off all my body hairs, including my pubic hair, so that my body was not just smooth and white, but  always kept soft and hairless like a little girl's. 

Although I was exempted from physical education lessons on (falsified) medical grounds, I still had to put on shorts in physical education lessons to do some easy gymnastics, alongside the girls to get my basic physical education grades for admission to university. 

I felt so very shy about my slender, white arms and legs...totally without hairs...exactly like a girl's and the boys called me 'Sissy'...'Cecilia', that was another nickname for me...right in my face. Then after castration, Master put me through a 6-month-long electrolysis session for permanently removing my body hairs, including pubic hair. 

So I often feel so inferior, so inadequate, since I have never had body hairs of any sort, not even armpit hairs. 

And those of my clients who have lots of body hairs are usually in their 40's, and I so looooove to press my body and face against their body hairs, which cause friction on contact with my soft, white and smooth skin....and THAT friction, that titillating feeling of being brushed over by thousands of small brooms, makes me feel so very high, so very turned on, that at times I can't control saliva from flowing out from my mouth -- and I often have to squirt down there at my pussy once a man's hairy body is upon any part of my body, particularly my breasts and butt cheeks.

My former teachers and teaching colleagues are among my most supportive clients. 

Unlike my students...who come book me just to punish and humiliate me...these teachers, most of whom are middle-aged, sympathize with my situation. Although when I was a boy I was admittedly sometimes too proud, the new me...with my eye brows having been shaved off...my ear lobes pierced with twin/triple ear rings...my neck collared...my hands and feet chained...my whole body lily white smooth, soft all over without muscles...and my penis 98 per cent cut off...is VERY attractive to them. 

They say that I am humble, obedient and dependent now, and am no longer the haughty, aggressive and boy teacher I once was. They know that the club managers will have me whipped if I do not speak 'correct' broken, ungrammatical  English like primary school students, so they bring along some English compositions written by their students for me to read. 

The compositions are full of grammatical errors but clearly show the 'standardized grammatical structures' used by most of my clients, especially my own students who still form over 60 percent of my clientèle.

The trouble with me is that my English is too good, so to twist it back to the shape it once was when I was at primary school takes much patient teaching. 

I am a slow learner, and so my teachers and teaching colleagues do not hesitate to order me to get down on my hands and knees to be spanked, but only gently with their bare hands, and never with the small rod given to them by the night club in case I am found to be disobedient. 

So if I say 'I will make my skin whiter and softer' instead of the  colloquial bazaar English 'Me makes skin more white and mighty soft', they will just finger fuck me...very gently, at the perimeter of my pussy and asshole only...never too deep down and in...so I won't get hurt. When I finally manage to say the correct version of any sentence, remembering to add -s to 'make' after 'I' and 'We'...the way my students do ...they praise me, saying 'Good girl, Jennifer, very clever'. 

And I feel so pleased, because they will also send in straight-As feedback reports to the club managers, who will then report back to Master, who will then love me, cherish me and hug me ever more !!

In recent months, a middle-aged man who was Papa's close friend is coming to book me at increasing frequency.  When Papa started training me to be a girl at the age of  13, he used to come to my home to observe how I was being feminised  by being made to kneel down to serve him tea, and he was often invited to have me spanked butt bare if and when Papa found that I was not soft, gentle and obedient enough.

One day while he was observing how Papa stripped me naked to be whipped butt bare for not having skin that was white, soft and smooth enough, he suggested that since my looks were so pretty for a boy, and my school grades were so good, he was thinking to make use of my sperms to make his wife pregnant, and he said that it would be wonderful to have a boy or girl who looked like me, and with my soft, white skin and submissive character. Papa said that it was okay and in the following day I was taken to a clinic where the doctor used a forced orgasm machine on my asshole so I got so turned on that I shot out a good load of cum, which the doctor as far as a I knew had then inseminated that man's wife with.

Now nearly 13 years afterwards, this same man is coming to have me booked at least twice a week. He does not fuck me, but asks his son, a primary school pupil aged about 11 + to first have me spanked and then have me fucked in my pussy and asshole.

The boy looks  remarkably like me, with soft white skin and a small penis, but unlike me he is very aggressive and dominant. He often have me collared and then have me crawled and barked like a dog before having me fucked in my face, pussy and asshole, with the sort of ferocity and strength I couldn't possibly imagine that his small penis could sustain, for I myself...having a very small penis before my castration...wouldn't have imagined that a small penis like this little boy's could be THAT strong.


My neighbor....that middle-aged man...insists that I MUST moan and beg for mercy from the boy as I am being spanked and fucked by the boy, so that, as he says, his son will grow up to be more 'man' and will know how to control and discipline his wife after marriage.

The boy keeps asking me all sorts of questions while having my breasts squeezed and fondled, and the most frequently asked question is how come my English is so poor and yet I could find a job as a teacher before my castration. I answer him by saying that I am now a girl, and I need to train to be stupid, ignorant and humble so that I can become more obedient, inferior and then can be  more well liked by men and boys. The boys laugh, saying that he has never heard such stupid talk before, and have me spanked butt bare for my stupidity.


I don't mind being spanked by young boys...they have been doing this to me for several years, but this boy, looking so very much like me when I was at his age, has me feel worried. Might he be, in a twisted sort of way, my own son ?

Since Day 1 of my MtF transition, Master decided to train me to be a timid, dependent child. i was told to forget my past as an independent, educated adult. The most embarrassing thing about learning to be a small child is NOT speaking poor broken English...that can easily by managed by memorizing some basic pidgin English rules normally used by street hawkers, maidservants and waiters...the most difficult thing IS ...yes still is...ask men/boys to help me with excretion and urination, and to help me to take a bath. When i was in training at Master's residence, the sons of Master's friends...aged between 12 and 19...all had taken their turns to help me with using the toilet and having my daily bath/baths.  

Now my condition is better, I am asking the much more gentle, mature clients to help me with such matters. Instead of using the bath as an occasion to squeeze, twist and even pinch me all over, mature men bathe me gently, first having my breasts cleansed and dried, and that is followed by plugging woolen balls into both my pussy and asshole to give me the inner of comfort of deep cleaning and cleansing. For mature men, a bath is a bath is a bath...yes they do touch and caress me here and there...but for the boys having me bathed is having me tortured and humiliated, which is an entirely different...almost repulsive....experience.

The fact that I am now so very free going online writing about my MtF transition and escort experience is due in large measure to the help given to me by several mature men at the initial stages of training to be a submissive slave girl. 

When Master discovered that  i...as His administrative assistant.... had embezzled money from company investment funds for my own private use in buying clothes, makeup kits and hormone pills, He was determined to send me to jail. But three of Master's closest friends helped to persuade Master to give me a chance. Yes i was bad, having stolen money, but then... they all said...  i appeared to be soft, feminine and obedient and, Master's three friends said, i would be very good material for shemale escort work.

So Master gave me a chance on condition that i agreed to under feminization ...which i myself liked anyway...to train to be an escort, with castration to be carried out on me if i was found to be too disobedient and too boy after six months of training.

Despite long years of crossdressing and making myself up to be a girl at night, my shape wasn't good...for a girl...at all. My advantages in training to be a girl were just that i had a small girlie frame, small hands and feet, and that my penis was very small and soft, largely dysfunctional because of long years of having taken contraceptive pills. Having said that, my skin colour tone was uneven with those parts of my body exposed outside my shirt....arms and neck...notably dark, almost tanned at my upper arms. And then my breasts were so just small , with just my big nipples being in female erect shape, but still big enough. 

All those defects did NOT stop Master's three friends....all in their late 40's and early 50's...from patiently having me caressed all over, and then had me fucked most gently and slowly in my asshole --- to  kind-heartedly cause me minimum pain. Without the patience of understanding of Master's mature friends, i couldn't have possibly got used to my new life as a girl so successfully during the initial stages of my training. 

These kind men didn't mind the fact that i still had mannish muscles on my arms and legs...especially my legs, because i needed to stand to teach as a teacher...and they comforted me by telling me that having hard muscles was all right....i was born a boy anyway...and those muscles would definitely all disappear to become fats as soon as i underwent castration to have my testicles...my balls...cut off. To these three mature men I am eternally grateful for the success i have had in my MtF transition.

My mature clients consist mainly of my teachers, visitors from abroad (mainly British and American) -- and the fathers of my boy students who I got to know on occasions of   school-organized interaction meetings with parents and/or annual home visits which teachers must made to parents of students with poor academic results.

As most of my students had poor school grades,  over a period of four years' of teaching as a male teacher, I got to know quite a lot of men. The fathers of my students knew me as a soft-spoken, gentle teacher with unusually white and smooth skin for a  person of the male gender.

When some men complained to me that I was a bad teacher, so that their sons had such poor results, I couldn't help controlling my tears...I said sorry...and  a few men demanded an apology from me, I actually got so ashamed of my performance that I got down on my knees to say sorry. 

Now that I am a shemale escort...and am having sex with their sons on a regular basis,,,these men, as fathers who I knew, also have me booked. They say that they got a great interest in me as soon as I saw them for the first time, my skin being so white....my hands and feet being so small...and my voice so soft in a sissy sort of way.

They like to have me fucked doggy style, and often enter me most gently, and when my asshole is being penetrated, they never  do it in a rush, but always make sure that I am being drilled  gradually, sort of inching in, and if I moan in pain, they will withdraw and allow me time to lubricate my asshole again for furthermore penetration. 

They like to have me fucked with my glasses on, the way I used to look as a teacher. They show great sympathy for me for being required by the night club administration to speak broken,  very poor English but comfort me by telling me that it is all right, because men like girls   the way I am, being stupid, ignorant and uneducated, so that I am  most attractive because of my poor English and total submission to men.

They say that my character is suitable for my work, as I am by nature soft and submissive, and if I had continued being a male teacher, my pretty skin and looks...along with my bedroom skills...would have been wasted. All that makes me feel good, and I am so glad they keep coming back to have me booked.

Mature men in the 45-to-65 age group like having me dressed and made up as a little child. They help me to take a bath first....carefully have my hair bound  and combed into double ponies....and some even FEED me with a mild bottle.

 And then they tell me stories from Andersen's Fairy Tales -- while my nipples and pussy are being caressed by their hands. I LIKE being made up and dressed to look like a child, and after all the love and care these men give me, they will ask me if I have been a naughty girl at any time during  my life. 

I tell them the naughtiest thing I did was to teach part time as a male secondary school teacher while at university. THIS  mischief always gets me spanked butt bare while being placed on the knees of these mature men.  Being spanked by mature men always gets me wet at my pussy, and the pain mixed with pleasure cause tears to swell up into my eyes.

 Then they say, 'Don't cry, Sweetie' -- and then they pat me on my double ponies, my cheeks and that little penis clitoris I get in between my pussy lips. Oh I feel so relieved as the mental pressure building up inside me is being drained by their kindness, understanding and compassion. They KNOW that it is hard for me to train to be a child, but they say I am doing the right thing, since my body is so small and my face has the typically  innocent looks of a little girl.

 If  I keep moaning in pain and persist in begging for mercy, they will let me off their knees, and then I will be fucked hard, brutally hard, till the last fibres of my being seem to be breaking apart by the sheer force, velocity and determination with which these men have me fucked, usually in my pussy....which is what I like...instead of in my asshole, which could cause me unnecessary pain. I like mature men because only they are willing to treat me, bathe me, discipline me and have me fucked like the little girl I so very much want to be.

ture men are very good with their massage skills. They seldom have me fucked straight away, as do most boys, and they choose to used their fingers/the vibrator  to gently caress my pussy and asshole before having me penetrated.   

While my pussy/asshole is being gently vibrated/massaged/caressed/touched, they keep on praising me for having a pretty, neat pussy, and they use their hands to purse my pussy lips, so that the clear outlines of my pussy stand out clearly even if I am in panties or trousers, as the case may be.  That turns me on, because I do like to have a pretty-looking pussy, and I want to see it being pursed up like sandwiches by the rough fingers of men,

They gently caress my pussy for at least 15 minutes before having me fucked, thereby making my experience an enjoyable routine rather than a sort of forced torture, as most boys tend to make it to be.

Mature men have a skill that young men seldom have, and that is whole body massage. They know where my sensitive spots are, and they use their fingers to gently meander all over my body, first my breasts, then my nipples, and that is followed by hand strokes over the insides of my thighs, and licking of my cheeks ...those on my face, and those on my butt...which make me feel  so very hot.

Young boys seldom even both to do all these pre-penetration manoeuvres,  and their straight, almost brutal,  penetration WITHOUT FOREPLAYS really hurts me, not just my body, but deep in my soul.

For such foreplay, so gentle and caring, make me feel like a human being, not a human toy. Most of my teaching colleagues and teachers are capable of doing such foreplay, and for that I am most grateful to them.

My teachers and former teaching colleagues have been told that although I WAS an educated male secondary school teacher, I AM being 'de-educated' to become an ignorant and stupid child who will willingly get down on my knees to be disciplined by men. 

So although I am not allowed to read or write (except for blogging on my escort experience on the Internet), I am encouraged to acquire those skills normally mastered by little children, such as drawing cartoons. My clients  will draw cartoons on the blackboard for me to do imitation drawing, and because  throughout my school years I concentrated on reading and studying ...I seldom did any cartoon drawing...I don't usually do cartoons drawing very well, and the cartoons I draw are really not so nice.

 I have to draw on the blackboard  butt bare with my panties down, getting ready to be spanked if my clients find that my drawings are not satisfactory. My students  do  mercilessly spank me really hard if I don't do my cartoons well...leaving lash marks on my poor butt...but my teachers and former colleagues...as mature men...just gently pull down my panties and have me GENTLY  hand spanked only. Oh,  they are so gentle and kind, these mature men, and I DO love them !

Mature men are generally more patient with me even if I don't succeed in getting them hard within 15 minutes. My students...those naughty boys...would have me spanked if they don't get hard in 10 minutes, saying that I don't work hard enough.

But my teachers and former colleagues would just sit there, reading or just taking a short nap, and then I get down on my knees to have them sucked off, gradually and tenderly. 

They keep saying, 'Don't worry, dearest, even if I don't get hard it isn't your fault...you won't get spanked for that.' Which sets my heart at ease, so I lick and lick....suck and suck...and eventually bingo, that naughty penis of my teachers and colleagues does eventually get hard. I like mature men for their patience and understanding.

I love having sex with mature men in the age group from 30 to 55. Most of my teachers, and some of my fellow-teachers...colleagues at the teaching staffs of the secondary schools I used to teach at....are in this age group.

 I like them for the lovingkindness,  tenderness and gentleness while in bed, which is very much unlike the BRUTALITY  and near BESTIALITY which most young teenagers show while I am required to serve them. Most teenagers have watched too many porn videos online for their own good, which means that it isn't realistic to expect me to do for them all those things they see on videos.

Yes, weird acts almost like dreamy unreality or fantasy could be forcibly performed, but those  will be  done under duress...I am so afraid of being whipped butt bare.... but they are done very much against my own will, and for that the whole situation of  fun, pleasure and  that ecstasy of mutual sharing  which lovemaking is meant to give  both me and my clients is gone, literally being trampled into oblivion.

I am intending to write about my experience with mature men...mainly my teachers and former colleagues at school....and although they form less than 30 per cent of my clients, they give me 90 per cent of my joy at work. 

I hope my writings won't bore you, but I trust that you will forgive me for that....please do forgive me for my poor writing...I know that I am stupid but writing gives me such joy because being locked IN much of the time, almost 24/7, is soooooo boring, and I am not allowed to read or write, blogging is the ONLY activity I still have with which I can seek release to my tension in my long training to be a soft, gentle, obedient, dependent  and STUPID female slave. 

(Me - having sex with one of my secondary school teachers. He used to teach me English and he tells me over and over again he likes me a lot, both as a bright language  student and now as an obedient escort.

He has me booked at least once a week, and when he first met me....when I still had a penis, but castrated...he offered to buy me out from the night club, so I could re-start my life as a male teacher. I told him it was too late, because I had committed the crime of embezzlement, and  I would be sent to jail on the basis of the evidence collected  if I didn't work as a shemale escort. He pities me so, and gives me tips...extra fees...to help me pay off my debts. Although I never get those tips...all money must be surrendered to the club manager....I  sincerely thank him  so very much for his love and understanding.)

Most of my teachers... and some of my colleagues at the school where I used to teach as a male teacher... are in the 35-55 age group, and I find them delightfully gentlemanlike while having fun with me. 

At the time when I still had a small penis....but no balls....they would just gently patted me on my penis, and some actually licked it and tickled it saying that it looked very cute. When I asked for permission to get hard while being touched, caressed or tickled at my penis, that permission was ALWAYS granted. 

Now that I no longer have a penis, my teachers and former colleagues would just gently lift up my skirt to see that little penis clitoris...which is what remains of my poor pee pee...and they often kiss it, saying that it is exquisitely pretty. 

That makes me feel so glad, because I like men to say that my poor little penis is pretty.

My part-time job as a webcam actress

All the actors in my films are either my schoolmates or my students. They do this for free, on condition that I make them happy during the film shooting process. The videos are sold by Master to the night club, which then distributes it to various networks  worldwide for public viewing. Master says that while i am still young, i should get myself on videos as often as possible, even if much of the time i do it for free just to entertain my students. As you can see i am, as Master often says, not very pretty, but i do (since my castration)  look cute, and my students all agree to that.

This is a video of the work environment I am in. My co-workers are as you may expect all girls, while my clients are all men. Our client need to take off our panties to check for themselves whether we have got the right pussy/penis/asshole that will arouse them. 

After a client has taken off my panties, I need to... out of politeness ...direct and guide their fingers...by holding them with mine...so they can probe what we have got at our butt cleavage. Much of the time, clients want to find out whether my pussy and asshole are small and tight, and since I have the tip of my penis left to form my clitoris, they like me to take their fingers to touch where my poor little penis is hiding by using my own fingers to spread open my own pussy lips.

 Basically escort work is a very humiliating job, and only girls without any culture and education are willing to do it as a full-time job. So I MUST speak broken English to show the  clients that I am the sort of  village, uneducated  girl who will be easily be disciplined. 

With my students, schoolmates and teachers, I need to take extra precaution to always  speak  only broken English, because if they find that 'I am playing the smart guy I was by speaking fluent English', they will get angry and under night club rules, they can have me whipped (four lashes, two on each butt cheek) if they find me speak just ONE correct, grammatical English sentence.

At times I may have to stage a  public bathing show, with the focus of the camera direct on me while I am taking a bath for viewing of a small audience who would just like to see me take a bath, and would have nothing to do with me, so their  identity would never be  revealed or know.

 I have heard from my students that MOST of the people who have me booked for this kind of public bathing are their FATHERS. But naturally, they won't like their sons to know that they are doing this sort of indecent thing, peeping at a girl at the bathroom. 

Many of the fathers of my students already know that one of the male teachers of their sons has changed sex to work as an escort, but they won't like to be seen in my company, because I am 'bad and indecent'. But they keep doing this kind of booking just to get some release from the pressure building inside them because of the stories they have heard  about my having sex with my students on a regular basis,  with me being  a girl with a castrated penis inside my pussy. Which is something that cannot resist the temptation to see in real.

This is a video which puts into perspective the different methods by which Master uses different clever ways to make me become as soft, feminine, obedient, timid and dependent as possible.

This is one of my videos, with my students being the actors. They do this free on condition that I play the role of a teacher.  The content is about me being a poor teacher with poor teaching methods, and I am punished for my poor teaching by being fucked by my students. I thank my students for helping me to make this video.

These are my webcame artist profile pictures. You would have thought that men like to see me  stark naked in my profile pictures. But the fact is that men who visit webcam sites are generally quite shy, not like those naughty boys and teachers I often have sex with. 

They like to chat with... and see in sexual intercourse acts ...a girl who looks like any girl in their neighbourhood. -- that is a girl who is very much a homebody, a quiet and obediently decent girl who is NOT a slut. So you see in one of  my profile pictures  a very decently dressed me, with clothes and glasses on, though of course parts of my body need to be exposed...but only just...to add titillation  to the screen temptation... in  other snapshots... as needed baits to get myself more viewers.

No. 1 - My big 39 inches boobs -- naturally big, with no silicon implants !!

No.2   Me in collar with my nipples standing up tall, firm and erect, literally, like a girl  !!

No. 3 - Me with glasses and clothes on. Do I look scholarly ? This webcam part-time job gives me a chance to speak English correctly and fluently because many viewers are from India, Australia and the Philippines where my webcam company is licensed to operate.

 I AM educated, and I LOOK educated. If there were no discrimination against T-girls like me, I might as well be a very successful female teacher, because I have a good honours degree in English and History and I speak and write good English. But the harsh reality is that I must use my BUTT instead of my BRAIN to make a living (sigh !!!!!!!!). 

 Whenver  I  look at myself in this scholar-like picture, I dream of a brave new world in which the THIRD GENDER... transgender people like me... are RESPECTED and treated as a LEGITIMATE, LEGALLY RECOGNIZED  GENDER. 

No. 4 - Me being fucked in my asshole by this student of mine. My skin is very white, isn't it ? I  spend all my time indoors...my room is locked from the outside... and I will be whipped if I ever leave Master's residence/the night club main building  without permission. My students often complain that my skin is not white, soft and smooth enough, and that I am not girl enough. Now you guys see for yourself -- my skin is so very white, soft and smooth, and if I am still sometimes made to do corner time with my hands holding my ears....and then whipped butt bare....for not having skin that is 'girl enough', that is NOT fair.

Master says that since i have been working as an escort for several years, He would like me to earn a bit more as a webcam artist  to get more money for his investment in his business in Singapore and Hong Kong. 

At first i didn't think i could do this kind of thing, because  it is toooooo public, me having sex with men for viewing at home for anyone who pays. Master got very angry at me, and He didn't talk to  me for days on end....I felt so sad, because I need Master's love to get the will to live on. If He doesn't love me, my life would be over. He is so kind, so strong and so very macho, and the plans he designed for me for feminizing me are so far so effective. i  knew that I was wrong and disobedient in having refused to obey Him.

 So one day, i  knelt down at his feet....with collar and chain attached to my neck...and begged him to punish me in any way He wanted...and i wanted Him to chat with me the way He had done before. Master then took out a small cane...oh He was so kind, using just that small, flimsy cane...and whipped me butt bare for 15 minutes...painful, yes...but decidedly well deserved for a naughty girl like me.

Then He invited a student of mine...the naughtiest one I had ever had....always sleeping in class and never doing any homework...failing in tests too...and He asked that student of mine to make my first webcam video to be broadcast to the paying members of a certain video club. My student did this video free of charge, because he said that my body looked so very soft and nice, and would do this first video free of charge at no cost to Master.

My skin does look very white, soft and smooth when contrasted with this naughty boy's. He spent much of his time on playing football, so he had such tanned skin, and looking very man too. His penis was so strong,...I did enjoy this very first live videotaping session.

I am usually required to perform as a group with two other ladyboys. The actor is quite often paid at just 1/3 of our wages for appearing on screen. In return he has the satisfaction of fucking all three of us for free while making the video.

This is called 'piano performance', with the man fondling, twisting and squeezing our small cocks...or in my case my penis clitoris...while having us fucked. Our penis, at varying sizes...but my night club workmates all have a small penis of about 2 inches....is then pushed, pressed and pulled...sort of manipulated and twisted into different forms...sometimes pressed into small lumps...and sometimes pulled to its maximum length like raw noodles.

 We moan in pain as our penis is being played like piano keys, and then we are fucked after our poor little piano keys...our little pee pees in different shapes...some are castrated...mine is turned into a clitoris...oh after our poor pees are simply milked dry, and some ladyboy friends of mine do still can cum if stroked hard enough.

( Me - sucking off the cock of  student of mine during an interval in my webcam photo-shooting session. The videos will be sold on market by the club manager, and the money earned will be given to Master direct, without letting me know how much i am earning. i once asked Master how much i was earning per photo-shooting session, and i was severely whipped for being 'too nosey'. So i never asked Master or the club manager how much i can earn from such webcam sessions....being whipped is so painful so it is wise of me never ever to ask about how much money is involved.)

 (Me - doing 3 P with  European actors  in one webcam session, with one holding my legs way upwards and backwards, so that the other actor can have me penetrated deep and long in my pussy. Europeans are most willing to act as webcam actors, and most are just tourists who happen to  casually pass by our night club on their trip in Malaysia/Thailand.)

The men who role play with me in webcam sessions are sometimes not paid even a single cent. They come to act on screen for free, on condition that I have sex with them. I am never short of such willing voluntary workers, as most of my students like to do it with me on screen, provided that their faces are tactfully covered while having sexual intercourse with me. As usual in all porn photo-shooting sessions, I need to be all naked with my own face fully exposed.

After our little play in bed is over, I will need to give some special services to this voluntary actor. That usually starts with a nice blow job for him, with me sitting or on my knees at his feet.

It needs the screen to show how white and smooth my skin has become since my castration, and the dark skin of the actor...who is usually a student of mine... contrasts with my fair, silky smooth skin, and that turns me on, making me get wet at my pussy as I am sucking off the boy.

Hi, Long Time No See

Painful though it is, anal penetration is in my view one of the most effective ways with which Master trains me to be more feminine, obedient, timid and dependent. The fact that while being penetrated in my asshole i need to raise my butt way high to give easy access to Master makes my head bow very low, more or less like kowtowing.

Being on my knees and kowtowing at the same time is exquisitely feminine, something that all women and girls are expected to do in the bedroom while serving the needs of their loved ones. And then anal sex, however much my asshole has been  pre-lubricated, does cause pain, and with pain i need to moan and beg for mercy. That makes me appear so inferior, helpless and dependent, because if i don't wiggle my butt on command i will definitely be whipped by Master without mercy. 

Because of all this, my whole body trembles uncontrollably as i am getting down on my hands and knees to prepare for being fucked long and hard....yes brutally...in my asshole. Master says that if my skin is white, smooth and soft enough, He will be more gentle with His penetration, so i just can't help getting down on my knees begging for mercy, saying, 'Master, my skin is very white, soft and smooth...please don't fuck me so hard.' And then  Master will use Hands to caress me all over, making me feel so feminine, weak and dependent - and so womanly in every sense of that word.

Master is a very athletic, macho man -- you see, He has such huge, hard muscles on his legs, which are three times the size of mine !! 

i have become very obedient since my castration....yes castration does have the wonderful effects of making me very obedient, gentle, timid and dependent...but occasionally i am still naughty, such as having a sun bath in the seclusion of  Master's backyard garden --just a 10-to-15 minute exposure under the morning sun.

i am of course NOT allowed to go outdoors without Master's permission. But sometimes the sun is so gently warm and i would just HAVE to take a sun bath, though Master is not at home. Master is aware of this naughty behaviour of mine, but He is very kind and won't have me punished unless  the sun causes damage to my soft, white and smooth skin, which He insists that i MUST have as a girl. 

But the cumulative effect of such short sun baths is that after about two weeks, the skin colour tone on my body will become uneven because of sun exposure, with the parts covered by my bra and panties remain noticeably whiter and  much more defined, as it were,  than the rest of the skin on my body, which becomes a bit dark...only just...but enough to arouse the ANGER of Master. 

But Master is very kind...He says that i am a big little girl now...He won't have me whipped...but still poor discipline on my part cannot go unpunished, which is indeed reasonable. 

So when  those bra-and-panties-defined white marks  begin to inevitably appear, that will also be the time when i need to be punished for my poor discipline. 

Master will  have me DRY fucked in my asshole for 15 minutes...for as long as each one of my sun baths lasts...so that it causes me rather great  pain. But this kind of pain is well deserved, since as Master says, i am at heart still a naughty BOY.

Unlike a natural pussy, mine will CLOSE up if not regularly penetrated. There is an inborn tendency for muscles extracted and then implanted to 'heal', and this healing will somehow have my pussy closed up if not sufficiently and DEEPLY penetrated.

Most of my clients are ethnic Chinese, with a penis size of less than 5 inches hard, so that the innermost section of my virginal canal is left at risk of permanently being closed up because it being too virgin, it being almost untouched.

The club manager is aware of this particular problem of us post-op ladyboys, so that Africans with a big penis, at nearly 10 inches hard, are regularly hired as penis drills to, as it were, maintain the flexibility of the virginal canal of us ladyboys. Most of these Africans in my region are from Nigeria, and their penis is horribly big, like an elephant's.

I would have refused to go through this kind of therapy if possible, but the very real possibility of my pussy closing up...not necessarily, but possibly...is horrifying. I ask the Nigerian man to have me blindfolded first before he penetrates me so I don't need to look at his huge penis.

Having said that, I must admit that an African penis is most comforting, because it is really hard; and its staying power is remarkable great, and it is common for any Nigerian man to sustain inside me for more than 45 minutes, non-stop, something few Asian clients of mine can match. 

The Nigerian men praise me for having such white smooth skin, and they say that my pssy is tight, small and cute. All that pleases me, and they really treat me like girl, not as a boy...as most of my students still do...and I  DO like that.

The colour contrast of my white skin against the pitch dark colour of the Nigerian men also turns me on, because that makes me feel so girl and soft.

The main difference between my pussy and that of a biological girl is not in its shape...it is just the same as any naturally born pussy...but in the LENGTH  of the slit which purses up the pussy like a zip fastener in the middle.

The length of the pussy of a T-girl is normally a bit longer than that of the pussy of a biological girl, and when my pussy lips are squeezed and pressed upward together, they don't feel as 'thick' as those of a natural pussy. These are differences that no client can possible perceive, not to say see.

But men/boys like to ASK me about the differences, and so I let them press my pussy...feel the full extension of my pussy slit and the thickness of my pussy lips...to give them the satisfaction of making the discovery.

The extra length of the pussy length resulted from the needed surgical cut to remove my uselessly soft penis, and having the 'wound'...that cut... stitched back to normal naturally required more spacing for the recovery to be effective. That is why the length of my pussy slit tends to be a bit longer than normal, but I am not sure that is the case with other T-girls, because it does not feel right for me to ask my ladyboy friends to  measure and press their  pussy lips and slit to verify my own observation.

Since the completion of my sex reassignment surgery....the complete removal of my penis....and the growth of full, 38+ inches boobs on my chest....some clients of mine are offering to buy me as their slave on a permanent basis.

Master says that He is prepared to sell me to anybody at a right price. i keep begging Master to keep me as His slave, because i love Him, and at long last, Master relented. So for the time being i am still happily remaining Master's slave.

Master sometimes takes me for an outing to the countryside, where under the broad daylight, and with nobody around for miles around, He trains me to be more feminine, obedient and lovely --'as a sissy like you should be ,' He says.

He asks me to bind my hair into ponies, and once i get the teenage looks that Master so likes, He will have me trained to be an obedient  puppy, throwing stuffs like his socks and shoes for me to crawl on my hands and knees to puck up with my teeth.

When I crawl back to Master, He gently raises me face up, and in those sweet moments when His eyes meet mine, i am fired with passions, and then i bark....wooowohwohwooo...like that...like an obedient puppy....and then Master says, 'Oh pussy puppy, let me see your pussy !'  Then he pats me on my head, pulling my ponies, kisses me on my forehead, and whispers into my ears these sweet words, 'Good boy, well done...be my good dog...no worries...I won't sell you off...you are a good, obedient boy.'

He just very casually says those words, not shouting at me as my students do -- oh Master, you are so kind, so dark, tall and handsome.

He is fucking me in my asshole....Master likes fucking me at my asshole....not my pussy....because He insists that, girl or no girl,  i am a BOY to Him and He likes having me fucked as an obedient young BOY. 

Yes, Master i will be the obedient, cute-looking boy you like....i will a good boy....because i am a good boy...was a good boy...don't sell me to anybody as a GIRL, because i want to remain your BOY -  -- ALWAYS !

At home...Master's residence is now my home...I am getting used to my new life as a girl by ALWAYS squatting or sitting down to pee. 

As long as I had a penis, the temptation to stand up to pee...just for the fun of it....was really great. When my boy students bullied me for being a sissy  and slave, I used to assert my manhood by proudly standing to pee to let them SEE that I also had a penis, although my testicles...my balls...had been cut away, I could still stand to pee like any boy.

That assertion of  my manhood sometimes put a stop to the humiliation that my students were imposing on me from time to time, such as taking me out to a back alley and asked me to squat the roadside to pee. I stood and I stood and I successfully shot my urine out while standing tall...like a man...and there was no way my students could force me to sit down or squat to pee to humiliate me.

Actually my very proud, self-assertive act of  insisting to stand up to pee. in public....out in the open...was one reason for many of the complaints directed against me. Eventually, that was also one major reason why Master and the night club administration decided to have my penis cut off  to take away, once and for all,  this last remaining remnant of my naughty male pride.

Now that I have a pussy, I simply HAVE to squat or pee like any girl. My students now enjoy having me towed...like a dog...all naked with collar and leash on....to the backyard of the night club main building. There at the foot of a big tree reserved for me as my private 'urinal spot', my students will order me to pee for them to see and enjoy. I now HAVE to squat down to pee, because my penis is gone.

I do at times of frustration find squatting to pee at the feet of my students most humiliating, but as usual I overcome my shame and humiliation by thinking in this way : Well, I am a girl, right?  Is there any girl in this world who doesn't squat or sit down to pee ? No, right ? So it is just natural I am sitting down or squatting to pee. 

If the boys think that this is humiliating me, they are themselves stupid. How stupid can they go, asking a girl to stand to pee ! I am just doing what is right, and in any case although I pee at the foot of a tree, the walls protect this whole thing....me being in collar and held with a leash in the hands of my students...this whole thing cannot be seen, since the walls are seven feet high. 

Who can see me do this ? No, right, so it is okay anyway. It is just a small thing, though it could be shameful if I were still a boy. But I am NOT a boy right ? So it is okay to the nth power.

My young students like taking me out to the country and have me fucked like a dog with collar on, all naked and with my butt raised way high like a dog.

 Before the complete removal of my penis...when I was still thinking of myself as some sort of a man who might turn back to being a real one someday...I would have considered this kind of public, open sex rather repulsive, particularly because the boys normally choose to have me fucked with all their clothes on....to show their male pride and dignity...while I MUST be all naked and in collar with a leash attached to show my submission, humility and dependence as a submissive slave girl. 

Now that I am a real girl, with ...oh what a relief...my poor little penis finally chopped off, I no longer have any feeling of maleness or pride about myself. I feel that since I AM a girl I AM  a girl and I WILL be a girl, THIS....getting down on my knees and hands to be fucked by men...is normal, because you just tell me, is there anywhere on this planet where you can find girls and women not having gone through this kind of apparent humiliation just to please their boyfriends/Masters/clients. 

So once I am taken to a remote spot somewhere in the countryside, I will voluntarily take off all my clothes....and then the boys will have me collared and chained...and then I raise my butt high. The boys don't normally penetrate me immediately while I am acting like a dog in this kind of humiliating posture. 

They like to joke about me, being in the past a proud male teacher with shirt, tie and trousers...and a (fake) mustache too...but now look at me I am all naked, with tits but no cock, my penis being so miserably soft and small that it well deserved to be cut off. Such dirty....funny (to them)...jokes go on for about 10-15 minutes before they boys proceed to fuck me, always in the full dignity of having all their clothes....even their shoes...on while they keep caressing my body, touching it at every part, saying that I am looking prettier every day.

 That makes me feel so happy, and though being fucked like this is humiliating it is worth it, because if I hadn't been a real girl would they have taken all the trouble to drive me all the way to this place to have me fucked ?  That means for the first time in my life, I am no longer considered to be a boy....and I AM the girl I have always wanted to be.

Over the past few years while I was transitioning from boy to girl, most of my students have left school and are now having a job. At first they didn't want to come to have me booked after I had removed my penis, but after much begging on my part....I need their support and money...they eventually come back again --most of them, but not all. 

They come to have me booked as a group, and for the duration of up to three hours in one booked time slot. They like me to serve them food on my knees first, and while they are dining, they have me fucked, spanked or humiliated right there at the dining table, which may also be attended by one other ladyboy for a change. They like see how my facial muscles contract and change in shape as I am being penetrated in both my holes, and they say that the way I moan and beg for mercy....ohahohah....like that...is lie sweet music which helps to increase their appetite and their sex drive. 

They say that I am becoming increasingly obedient, which pleases me, and they say they will help introduce more clients to me, mostly their younger brothers, and ask me if I mind their brothers being so very young, just 11, 12 or 13. I say that it is okay with me, because I am in debt because Master is getting large loans from the night club under my name for his business and gambling activities.

I am adjusting to my new life as a girl by getting used to being penetrated in my new pussy. Previously, the only point of entry into my body was through my asshole, which could be quite painful at times if my asshole had not been sufficiently lubricated. 

Now the night club manager, along with an escort friend of mine, are helping to get me relaxed when I am being penetrated by either a penis or the finger/s of a man. It is also quite painful sometimes, this being penetrated by up to five fingers altogether. I close my eyes...take a deep breath...and take them all in, and fortunately, the club manager is usually quite gentle in these pussy relaxation training sessions, and he chooses to penetrate me with his fingers one at a time, and won't insert all five fingers into my pussy until I am sufficiently relaxed.   My escort friend....also a post-op ladyboy.....comforts me by holding my legs apart, and keeps chatting with me about how good it is to be a real girl at last, after we...she and me...have gone through all these painful years of transitioning from boy to girl.

As an escort, I undergo medical checkup for possible STD, sexually transmissible disease,  infection once every week. The night club hires a doctor just for this purpose. Master has a family doctor of His own so He will also arrange for me to have total medical checkup once a week. Therefore in my case I have TWO medical checkups per week, which makes me feel safe and which makes all my clients feel safe while having sex with me. Here in this picture, Master's family doctor is examining my heart beat to see it reacts abnormally to my daily female hormone intakes.

I like the feeling of being gently massaged....caressed or stroked...on my breasts, particularly my big nipples. The hand you see here is that of one of my students...oh, so very large, hard and rough...and the friction of his hardened palm as it is gripping over the soft white skin on my breasts makes me feel so very weak, draining me of all energy because of the impulses....like electricity...generated from there, when the fingers of this student of mine are all over my breasts, covering my nipples like bottle corks. 

My teachers continue to be my most generous patrons, and they won't hesitate to pay me extra ...very generously ....up to USD 100...for taking me to the wide, open country to have sex with me. 

Most say that they were already attracted to my soft white skin while I was a boy student in their class, and they would have liked to touch my body ...especially my hands and face...had I not been their students. They say that I am doing the right thing in turning myself into a girl, because what is the use of remaining a boy if I couldn't get hard. There at a lonely beach, my teachers would fuck me with my hands bound, and  they say that they feel very proud, very good indeed, while having me fucked, because once I was such a smart boy, so smart that they wouldn't ever argue with me over various issues....because my mind turned so fast...but now I am so humble, so very feminine and would kneel down immediately to say sorry if disobedient. Their penis turns rock hard as they are stripping me naked at the beach, and as I moan and beg for mercy ....their penis is so very strong....they get  even more confident, and in those moments of their male pride, my humility and my submission are so very much appreciated.

After my castration in December 2014, I was forced feed heavy doses of female hormones ...along with almost daily injections....so that my penis could shrink to its smallest possible size. It dropped in length from three inches plus to less than two inches in about six months. My students and schoolmates kept having me booked JUST to have my penis whipped, squeezed and twisted for fun, and they were more interested in 'helping' me to make my penis smaller than in having me fucked.

The club manager made it a rule that my penis must be wrapped tight with elastic bandages whenever I was free from escort work, so that my poor pee pee shrank rapidly both in size and length to THIS...oh I hated the look of it so much that in the end it was a relief that Master agreed to cut off my penis altogether because of client complaints that I was too boy and aggressive !!

This is the little penis clitoris I have been allowed to retain after my penis had been cut off as punishment for my persistent disobedience -- and for being so very aggressively boy despite my training. 

This poor little pee pee of mine CAN get hard when stroked hard enough, but obviously being so small, it isn't good for penetrating a girl's pussy. 

It is meant to show that I am now completely submissive. I will not...never ever... be punished for getting hard without permission  -- and yet I still have a mini penis embedded deep inside my pussy, just beneath my pussy lips to form a clitoris. 

The construction of this penis clitoris is a wonder of modern medical science, a testimony to the genius of the doctors of Paraguay who are the descendents of  German doctors who migrated there after World War II.

I am asked by my students to upload this picture of myself with glasses on, and with my breasts fully exposed. My students like to see how I look as a FEMALE teacher, because  they say that they are TIRED of my old looks as a MALE teacher.

So this is it....I am wearing glasses with minimal makeup. I do look respectably educated with glasses on. I wish someday the restrictions could be lifted and I could again teach at school as a teacher. But right now, this is out of the  question because ladyboys are forbidden from teaching at school for having violated the basic standards of morality. 

This is indeed prejudice to the nth power. What is wrong with cutting off my penis....taking female hormones...and becoming a girl ? It isn't a crime.  Even working as an escort is not a crime. How criminal is it to sell my body in exchange for money, earring a living honestly ?  I am so discriminated against by everyone, especially those who knew me as a man/boy.

Incidentally, my students often  complained that my nipples are not pink enough. Right, they are right. I do apologize for that....I am so sorry...I am working hard on my nipples...please do NOT use the whip on my nipples, Sirs...nipples clamps are okay...I can take them...but no whips, Sirs...very painful !!

So I have rubbed whitening cream of different sorts onto my nipples....Boys...Litttle Masters...Sirs...are my nipples pink enought now ? Don't spank me for having dark nipples next time....please, please...I do beg you on my knees...I was once your teacher....don't whip me for just not having pink enough nipples.

(My Little Master. my dearest students, do I still look like a teacher with glasses on ?  I hope you guys like this picture. 

I look pretty with glasses on, don't I ? Please say that I AM pretty. I so like you boys to say that I am pretty...I underwent castration and then sex change just to look like this, with nice smooth and lily white skin. My breasts...my nipples especially...do they, my little red lights, look nice? 

Come touch me on my nipples to ease the tension...oh immense pressure...that I feel there....and much more DOWN there in the two holes at my butt cleavage. Yes I still look like a teacher, but I am teacher no more. I want to be fucked, disciplined and CONTROLLED by you boys.)

Although I used to be quite shy about having a penis-like clitoris inside my new pussy, I am now having the courage...boldness...to INVITE  my clients to touch my clitoris, so it can be made to blow to its full size to resemble the penis of a new-born baby !!

Strangely but most certainly, I feel that the more punishment I am receiving down there in between my thighs, the more submissive and feminine I am becoming.

In those days before my castration in December 2014, I quite often simply refused to get down on my knees to be spanked and then fucked by my students. After the removal of my balls, I tended to submit to my needed feminizing humiliation much more readily, and I began to LIKE being spanked butt bare before being either finger fucked or simply fucked.

But to become soft and feminine enough to voluntarily take out a rod or a pad to INVITE my clients...particularly my young students...to have me punished or disciplined was a reaction that came natural to me only AFTER the almost 98 per cent emasculation...removal...of my penis.

Now this small 2 per cent of the penis- tip- leftover clitoris is making me feel so inferior when men/boys spread open my pussy...have my clitoris fully exposed to be squeezed and stroked...and then when men/boys make mocking comments on my misery and inferiority...that a  stupid sissy like me with such a baby-sized penis left like a lump inside my pussy deserves to be whipped, chained and fucked like the whore I was born to be ...I feel soooooo inferior, and in my inferiority I feel a need to submit and to be disciplined -- and that  burning desire sort of swells up from no where up into my brain, and then I  feel so hopelessly weak,  needing so desperately to submit to the orders of men/boys.

Their penis is so mightily hard, like a sword, and I so need to be pierced hard down there to ease the tension, the frustration and pressure...oh so very immense...building up in between my legs. It is as if my new pussy would be exploding at any moment like a volcano on the verge of eruption, and that...oh that lovely penis...is needed to at least temporarily contain it.

I choose to walk  on my knees towards the feet of men/boys...with a rod held tight in my mouth with my clenched teeth...the pressure building up inside me just makes me have to  clench my teeth to release it...and then  I have to BEG my clients...even if they are just teenage boys of just 12 or 13...to have me whipped on my butt...oh, squeeze me at my hardening nipples if they are kind enough to do that...and then please I say fuck me hard, brutally if needed be.

 I am so surprised by this apparent degradation I am sinking into, but that is how I am feeling now, as a girl... I am no more, thank God,  a man, since my penis is gone once and for all. The fact that men/boys care to take all this trouble to discipline, humiliate and fuck me shows that they are treating me as a real girl, which is what I have been trying ..yes I AM still trying hard... to be since the age of 13.

Hi, long time no see !! After more than three years of continuing feminization under the strict guidance of Master, i am in every respect all woman. Master says that i should let you have a look at me with a smiling face. Here i am, with two T-girls each on my left side and right side.  i am no longer shy about being spanked and fucked , because as a girl i know that my DESTINY is to be fucked, spanked and humiliated by men. Men are superior to me...i am just a girl...i sob easily...i am soft and weak...and i LIKE to be dominated by you men, that is, if in case you are a man reading this.Is my butt pretty, soft and white ? i am not having even a G-string on while awaiting my needed punishment by my valued, much respected clients. i used to think that boys under 18 shouldn't have me fucked, but now i know that boys, however young, are much superior to me. Boys have a penis...i don't have that ...i now must be fucked to feel happy. 

i feel so very proud to be able to be kneeling on my hands and knees to be penetrated by men. It is because i am soft, pretty and attractive that they even bother to come all the way to have me booked and fucked. i feel so honoured to serve men...oh...men have such strong arms and hands, and i very much enjoy being hand spanked by their hairy, commanding hands. i haven't been allowed to read books for more than three years...and i am so very glad that i am getting ever more ignorant about world affairs -- and stupid in my way of thinking. i now no longer dare to speak correct English, and my poor, broken English....as well as my stupidity and ignorance.... makes all my clients laugh . They laugh at my incompetence, stupidity and utter uselessness ...especially my former students...oh...all these make them so very hard, and their rock-hard erection drives me mad, and i squirt all over the bed sheet even as i am looking at their hardening penis....what a sight...so very big, and then they rub their big, hard penis against that mini-sized penis clitoris hidden beneath my pussy lips --- oh, so very comfortable, so soothingly pleasing, literally sending me to the heavens.

I am so very proud now to have a 39-inch bust, and I feel soooooo happy that I did make the right decision in not having my breasts removed even at moments of crisis, such as when my ex-girlfriend insisted that I must cut off my breasts to be allowed  to stay at her home, or when Master decided to punish me for disobedience ...that I must  accept the punishment (yes oh so very harsh, but decidedly well deserved !)  of either allow- ing my breasts or my testicles to be cut off...I made the right choice in retaining my breasts by accepting castration.

My breasts as you can see  look so very pretty, so very soft, white and attractively sexy. But my testicles, small as they were, looked so repulsively unsightly, like two water-drained over-sized drying grapes hanging lifelessly  in between my legs. 

As late as mid-2014, when my students squeezed my breasts for fun and pleasure, their hands, if large enough, could cover up over 80 per cent of my breast surface.  In those days, my breasts were just 34 inches, miserably small and INFERIOR  by any standard. Now the fruits are ripe, and like early spring flowers, my breasts are blowing into full size, at 39 inches plus. When my students exclaim, 'Teacher, your two water melons are sooooo big'  I feel soooooo happy...yes 'vindicated' is the word... because all my past efforts, hard work and perseverance in trying to keep and grow my breasts are now richly rewarded.

I have developed a strong liking for being punished, fucked and dominated by mature and/ or old men. As a boy, Papa used to be very strict on me, training me to do all kinds of housework and then I was harshly spanked or whipped if I was found to be not soft, feminine and obedient enough.

 I like to be dominated and disciplined by mature men in their mid-30's or middle-aged men between the age of 45 and 55. When Papa was training me to be a girl, he was in his early 30's, and I left him when he was in his early 40's  to work independently after university. Such men feel like my Papa and I LIKE to be disciplined by Papa-like men. 

Aside from my students...who form half of my clientèle...about one-quarter of my current clients are my former teachers and former colleagues at school when I was a part-time male teacher. So they are in the age-groups I prefer. 

Most of my former teachers and colleagues are NOT young and their body doesn't look compact and muscular...  indeed they look sort of flabby and loose all over... but they do  know how to make me happy, knowing full well where my most sensitive spots are. And then they often treat me like a lady because they are all well educated. Instead of purposely humiliating me by requiring me to speak in broken, ungrammatical English, they allow me to speak the sort of correct, grammatical English which I feel comfortable with. When they penetrate me, they often do that slowly and gradually, knowing that I sob and moan easily if there is too much  pain. 

As a girl I NEED to  feel inferior and respectful to men,  to be all woman, truly feminine. My naughty students, being so poorly educated and such ill manners, can never help to give me that feeling. But my teachers and colleagues are all educated....with a university degree like mine...and the fact that although I also have a degree and was also once a man...and I now need to kneel down to be fucked and punished...makes me feel so very inferior, and that inferiority makes me feel so very girl, so very obedient, fueling my desire to be more submissive and respectful to men.

When I was still a man...at least technically so with a full cock...I used  to argue with my teachers and colleagues over many issues, ranging from politics, social affairs, manners to economy, movies commentaries and women's issues. Now  since I have not read books and magazines of any kind for nearly four years, and because as a female slave I will be punished for expressing my opinions, I always involuntarily give very dumb, ignorant...yes very laughable...replies when asked to express my views on various issues.

 I remember that after having been fucked by one of my former moral education teachers, he asked me what sort of gift I would like to have as my birthday present. Master always gives me a new rod for punishing me on every one of my birthday since 2013, and so I replied, ' I need a new rod so men can use it to punish me for disobedience.' My teacher laughed, and on my birthday, he did buy me a brand new rod...very small and flimsy, but firm...and then without saying a word, he whipped me butt bare with that rod, sending me to my knees so I begged and sobbed and I enjoy the misery of begging for mercy.

Such is  one of my new  developments since my sex reassignment surgery in November 2015.

Humiliation is such sweet sorrow. I remember those days in early 2015....just weeks after my castration....I got so very shy, almost shocked into numbness, when my students just kept coming...in endless streams...to have my breasts, penis, butt... and every part of my body. ..examined in the smallest details.

My face turned so very red, almost crimson, when my student made very horny... perhaps at times offensive...comments on my penis....saying how small it was and insisted that I must stand up to pee even though it was so very difficult for me to do that with my much shrunken penis. 

Now that my penis is gone, leaving behind just its very tip to form a penis-like clitoris inside my pussy, my students are even more aggressive in toying with my little penis, small as it is now.

They like taking me to a remote suburb  spot, and there with nobody around, they stroke my clitoris until it is blown into  full size, and then  one  remote-controlled vibrator  is  inserted  each into my pussy and asshole. There I am required to kneel on my hands and knees, with my butt raised well up. Oh,   that is such humiliation but it...the vibrator... gives me so much itchy pleasure. 

I beg, beg and beg for the boys to come fuck me...I will do anything to get that PRIVILEGE  of being penetrated by their rock hard penis...yes very hard, so very sweet...I yell, beg and moan...and am ordered to repeatedly say, ' Oh Sir, I am not a man or a teacher anymore...I have cut off my cock...I am stupid...but my butt is round and white and pretty....my holes deep and juicy...please fuck me...spank me...spit on me...do anything to me...but I need to be FUCKED !' 

As I am saying all these so very immoral things...I shouldn't be saying all these...I used to be  a teacher...but then I have no choice...I must be obedient... I feel so very hot, and I have to stroke my own nipples to release that very big tension...immensely huge, surging up  like a raging torrent  into the very core of my brain, making me tremble all over....and when at last I am first spanked butt bare... and then my face being pissed on by my students, I feel so relieved in my degradation and humiliation, because that is the prelude to my getting my ultimate prize, which is being fucked ...oh so very long and deep, brutally yes, but enjoyable no doubt...and at this stage in my life, being humiliated even in public is my dream and passion.

I like having my tight pussy literally split open by the penis. I feel so very proud that my pussy looks so very neat, with a neatly cut slit in between, like the zip-fastener on a lady's purse. And during those precious moments when the penis 'docked', as it were,  at... and then drives into... my pussy, I myself feel that pulsating, gripping feeling of my virginal wall contracting to form a  taut, all-embracing wall around the penetrating penis.

That feeling is so very exquisite, and thank God my uselessly soft, small penis it finally gone. This little hole that the doctors in Paraguay  have built into my bottom is giving me the sort of immensely intoxicating pleasure that no words can adequately describe. 

To make my pussy look neat and presentable, I choose to sit most of the time, with my legs alternatively crossing over each other, and I walk carefully in small steps with my thighs touching each other. I am always in high heels so the pressure exerted on my feet can go upward to pull and strengthen the muscles near my pussy, and then it should look thick, neat and TIGHT because of the daily pressure being applied onto it from my feet, knees and upper thighs. 

I have removed all those unsightly pubic hairs by electrolysis...yes very painful...but well worth it...because I feet so fulfilled, so very delighted when the boys...my students...say that my pussy is pretty. My new pussy is making me very proud, with me feeling very pretty as a whole.

  

When I was a crossdresser, I was very often turned off when I approached old or much older men for sex. At first I thought that it was because of the higher moral standards held by old people, and they wouldn't easily have public sex with a ladyboy like me. 

But since becoming an escort...now a female escort...I have found that men have a problem called andropause, which causes their penis to gradually soften after the age of 50. So that is perhaps the main reason why men in the 50-67 age group usually turn me off...some just drove me away by shouting at me...when I approached them for sex as a crossdresser.

Some of my older teachers and  some  of my former colleagues who taught at the same boys secondary school as mine seem to have this problem.

I find  to my initial surprise that they seem to be able to cure their erectile dysfunction by having sex with sombody like me, with a mini-sized penis hidden deep inside my pussy as a clitoris. I am working with another ladyboy ....who was castrated just six months ago...to help some clients to get their needed erection. The fact that my ladyboy friend and I...born as male.t..are so uselessly weak and sissy serves to boost the male pride of my teachers and colleagues who are having erection problems. 

Compared to the two of us...me with just a  penis clitoris of less than half and inch...and my friend with a very soft, much shrunken and retracted castrated penis of just about two inches plus...makes ANY man with an average-sized penis of about 4 inches feel so superior. And that feeling of male  superiority is much needed to get the drive to make their penis get hard !!

I open up my own pussy...stroke my little penis clitoris into full-blown size...and then use it to gently massage the thighs and cock of those teachers and colleagues of mine who have this terrible erectile dysfunction problem.

My ladyboy co-worker will simultaneously  use her castrated penis...without balls...to brush over the thighs of my teachers in broad strokes, leaving the small, gentle strokes...though little, titillating strokes...to be done by the brushes I make with my penis clitoris on the groin, testicles and penis of my teachers and colleagues. 

My ladyboy friend is very grateful to me for allowing her to pair me, as she has very few customers because of her lack of experience and social circles. 

The two of us are working together very well, and my teachers and former school teaching staff colleagues are letting others know about  our services. We are grateful to them...my teachers and former colleagues...for helping us to earn more money. 

Although I used to be a university graduate with a good education, I am now treated as totally uneducated, ignorant and stupid like my ladyboy friend, and we are introduced to our customers as having just primary 3-4 school education. I was an educated MAN, but as a GIRL  I am not just uneducated, but must  continuously train myself to be ignorant, stupid...speaking very poor, broken English...to please my customers, so they will get that needed  social and intellectual superiority complex to get the erection they must have to fuck us -- to become normal again.

At first when I began working as an escort, I though this kind of thing most indecently immoral and degrading, this  using my little pee pee to massage the thighs and cock  of a man. But what is morality ? I now feel that I am doing something very useful for men with erection problems, and that is a service which  even doctors cannot give to them.

I have a most pleasant surprise after my sex reassignment surgery. I myself didn't notice that until one day when I got down on my knees to get ready to be spanked by a student of mine....he exclaimed, ' Teacher, you have two lovely pimples on your butt cheeks !!'  Indeed on that occasion, the boy spared me the pain of being spanked ...though he had paid the club manager for that...just because I am having these two lovely dimple-like depression up on the top of my butt cheeks where they meet.

I have been trying to develop these two sexily attractive depressions at my butt even when I was still a boy, and at the university I did plenty of yoga in an effort to get these two butt dimples. Somehow they never appeared,  because my butt cheeks were not thick and round...and supple...enough.

Traces of these dimples began to appear after my castration, but they didn't grow noticeably big enough until the complete removal of my penis. 

Thank you Master for having me castrated....i would have preferred to cut short my life by two years in exchange for  having  these two butt dimples which i had been dying to have since the age of 13. Two unsightly testicles cut off to give me two lovely butt dimples --   oh , what a bargain, Thank you so very much, Master, for cutting off my penis, my balls and everything down there in between my legs, so i can have these two lovely dimples at my butt, and my butt cheeks have grown so sexy and lovely after my surgery. Thank you, Master, for your help !!

Now that I am a girl and a female escort...no more a man...no more a teacher...one of the things  I must do well is to take off my clothes efficiently and sexily, in such a way that my clients can be more easily turned on. To help clients to have an erection more easily, we as ladyboys will usually stage a bit of floor show in front of our potential clients. Men won't like to have us booked until and unless they see that we have got the right tits, butt and ...penis. 

We all have a penis of some sort...one of the girls has a full cock with penis and testicles...totally pre-op...one has just been castrated...with a penis but  no balls...and I have a pussy with an tiny, embedded penis clitoris inside my pussy. The girl with pony is me.

Sometimes when we see someone we don't like...such as a boy/man who has been very mean to us, always having us spanked or whipped for no reason...we may hesitate to take off our clothes for him. That is a natural reaction which even up to now I cannot control. 

But the club manager...a big, macho man with a strong beard...is always at hand and neaby, and if I don't take off my clothes fast enough for any boy/man...however much I dislike him...I will be ordered to kneel down and be whipped by the club manager right there on the spot. So when I see someone I don't like...such a naughty student who I used to punish and make to stand in class for stupidity and laziness...I choose to close my eyes...close them real tight...while i am taking off my clothes for him to inspect my tits, butt and penis. That is better than hesitating to take off my clothes, which will end up having me unnecessarily whipped by the club manager for disobedience.

This is my body today. Isn't it soft, white and smooth ? I enjoy having this nice-looking body, though I would have preferred not to be bound like this while being fucked by men. Many of my clients, including my students and schoolmates, now simply call me 'baby' because of the way my body looks -- cute, small, compact, and so very smooth and white, almost like marble in a way. Having my penis cut off does pay off !

When I was at school, I was exempted from physical education lessons on medical grounds. Now my students and schoolmates enjoy seeing me doing some physical exercise outdoors, with bra on.  They ask me to put on a very loose bra, and then when I slide down into the pool, my bra ALWAYS  come off, causing my face to get red, because it is so embarrassing, as it takes place in broad daylight, in public. But my boy students enjoy seeing me do that, and when my bra comes off, the other men in the pool keep their eyes glued on me, and that makes me proud because my identity as a girl is solidly confirmed. But I cover my exposed tits with my hands, and this natural FEMALE reaction pleases my students immensely, since I used to be so shameless in disguising myself as a man when  I was their teacher.


To remind me that I am a girl, the boys like requiring me to do something that boys can easily do, but girls cannot. That is, they ask me to stand to pee. They like taking me to a blind alley where I am required to stand to pee, which I can't.  I beg and I beg, and usually I am given permission to squat to pee. The boys like taking pictures of me in the embarrassment of not being able to pee standing up. It is truly embarassing but it also serves to remind me that I am a girl I am a girl and I am  a girl....I should never even dream of becoming a man again, the way I did before my castration. 

i have no pocket money of my own. All my earnings are passed to Master who keeps all my money for my sake, because i am so stupid and ignorant, and if i keep my own money i may be cheated of all my money by a guy who says that i am so nice and pretty and this and that way. i keep myself in shape indoors, because unless required by my work, i am strictly forbidden to go outdoors -- i am not even allowed to do shopping on my own, and i will be whipped by Master if i go out alone without His protection.

Master keeps me in shape by requiring me to go daily indoor exercise, such as doing this hand stand to help to keep my tits and butt round, tight and bouncingly soft. 

My butt has noticeable improved in shape and size because of this daily hand stand routine, as you can see from the GIFs  below.

Sometimes my students may like to see me do this very nice hand stand, and I do it for them, and then when I put on jeans, I feel so  very proud because my butt really looks awesome in its roundness and softless, jugging out from my jeans like two ripe melons put together.

The fact that I was a teacher helps me in my present work. My clients are getting ever younger because those primary school section  students who used to see me walk around at school in the secondary section have all grown up. They remember me as a strict teacher with a (fake) mustache and they saw me spank some boys in classroom. 

They used to be quite afraid of me, not daring to meet my eyes when they walked past me.Now they have grown older, and many of them are saving up their pocket money to have me booked for  about an hour every month or once every two months. They like taking me to the wild open country where they caress my naked body before having me fucked. I shouldn't have done this, but since I am now an escort I must serve them however young they are.

Like all my students, they like asking me all sorts of questions about why I cut off my penis to become a girl. I told them direct that I couldn't get hard, and this simple answer satisfies them. Then these young children...some are just 10...start having my butt spanked...usually with their hands...and then one student takes pictures of me being fucked, while the other student does the fucking. 

They ask me why I speak such poor English although I had been an English teacher. i told them direct again that I had a Master and i am His slave. He wouldn't allow me to read books and speak correct English since i am too stupid to be worthy of book reading. My students all laugh at my stupidity, and their penis becomes very hard after hearing this story of my de-education process -- the way  I am turned from being an educated male teacher into a stupid, ignorant female slave  by my Master.

The boys are very generous with their praises of me for having such pretty and white skin, which sparkles like a blanket of white lilies under the morning sun while I am being fucked in the meadow. The boys are so young, and in my mid-20s I am really so much older. Because they care to pay money to fuck an old girl like me...considering how young they are...I feel so proud and treasured...yes, I feel really honoured, being treated almost like a princess... when they gently caress my nipples and butt before having me fucked in my face, asshole and pussy.

They say that I am a good teacher, a good teacher of sex education, that is. They say that I have such small pretty, lily white hands, and then they like squeezing my feet which they say are so cute with toe nails painted red -- and so small, at just size 5. 

When they say that I am cute and obedient, I feel so very glad, and my pussy gets wet the next time when they have me booked, because they are so gentle, so kind, and are so unlike my older students who often come to have me booked for just humiliating me. Furthermore since they are young, they are about about my height, at just 5 feet 2 or five feet three/four, and that matches my size. When we have sex, this remarkable size similarity makes  me feel like being in the company of people of my own race.

I had been a secondary school teacher for nearly four years before I signed up to undergo castration to work as an escort. Therefore, I also had lots of teaching staff colleagues from my days as a teacher of English and History.

The male teachers kept looking at me...my side views...while I was marking English compositions, and when they invited me to play football after school, I often refused to join them because of my physical condition.  Now nearly three years into my MtF transition, my former school colleagues all know that I am now working as an escort. They pay generously for having me booked, usually at about 30 per cent higher than the normal fee charged. But they are also very demanding. 

It must be said that although they are not old....still in their 20s or 30s...they look very old indeed. I feel so very proud over looking so much younger than they are, and indeed they look more like my uncles.  

The GIF below proves it to be true my belief that female hormones have successfully made me look much younger than my age, and I look like a child underneath my former colleage (who also taught History and used to sit at my side)-- and my colleague looks very much like my Papa or uncle. Male hormones have the damaging effect of making a person look OLD. My colleagues are also curious, and keep asking me this : Why do you, Jennifer, look so childlike and young after all these years ? I told them it was because I had been castrated...but they wouldn't believe it. But that is the truth and nothing but the truth -- look at our differences in the GIF below !!

I like having ear rings on, because the piercings and the rings at my ears show that I am readily submissive to men.

The ear rings give men a feeling of control over my body because since my ears have been, as it were, kept in rings, I will listen to the orders given to me by men without questions or complaints. 

Right now I have altogether five piercings at each of my ears....my ears were pierced at different times on different occasions, the first ones being done on me by Master after i had become His slave.

My ears were  pierced for the second time after my castration to remind me that I must never ever be allowed to get hard. And my third piercings were done on me at the request of the majority of my students who decided that I must be reminded to be  always on  my knees to accept my needed spanking as a gesture of my complete submission to them as a slave -- no more the proud teacher I once was.

And then when my penis was finally cut off, some very young primary pupils at a school nearby asked the club manager to arrange for a meeting where I was made to get down on my knees before all 60 of  them...me being all naked and in collar...and then I  apologized to them for not accepting their bookings.

I had thought that they were too young to buy sex, but I was wrong because I AM a slave and have absolutely no right to refuse any booking. So these 10-year-olds and 11-year-olds had my ears pierced once...twice...at both my ears, at locations near my ear cartilages...not the soft ear lobes...so that I moaned in pain and begged for mercy in the hope that they didn't dig too deep into my ear cartilages.

But they DID dig deep with a huge needle....oh very sharp... and I burst into the tears...I had to pee uncontrollably, wetting the floor... as my ears were being pierced without anesthetics... sobbing all the way as the four holes...two at each ear...were made at the ear cartilage of  my ears -- oh so painful. The little boys then put rings with long chains at all five piercings at each of my ears, and I was ordered to do corner time butt bare...pussy fully exposed and finger fucked by the boys all the time.... with those ear ring chains dangling at my ears -- I was told to swing my ears while on my knees doing corner time.

 I was so sorry for having forgotten that I was no more a teacher...I just couldn't STOP little primary school boys from having me fucked because I after all AM an escort....I AM an escort...yes I AM an escort. If I were still a man and a teacher I could of course refuse to be fucked and spanked by 10-year-olds by NOW I have no more penis...I AM a girl...I NEED to be fucked to become more feminine and submissive. 

I now know that I was wrong.  I deserved to be pierced in my ears by the boys...I am just a girl...I am stupid....having my ears pierced will help remind myself that a stupid girl with such low I Q as mine deserve to be fucked by any boy at primary school ---my skin is fair and smooth, and I should let the boys enjoy themselves by having me spanked butt bare and fucked deep in my asshole and pussy. Yes I needn't have been embarrassed when these primary school boys call me names, such as 'sissy', 'useless and stupid slut', 'big tits girl' and so on. Actually I AM all these. I WAS a sissy throughout my puberty years...I was stupid... i shouldn't have embezzled money from Master's comapany...and indeed I AM a slut because I do need to have sex with men to keep my pussy open and flexible. In theory I was university educated, but in the real world...the way I am now...I am just introduced to the boys as a post-op ladyboy who has not yet completed primary school, speaking very poor English. So I AM inferior and an inferior, stupid and slow-thinking girl like me deserve to be fucked and punished by little boys. The little boys are superior to me...they have a strong penis...mine was so soft and short...and they can play and go outdoors any time they like...while my legs need to be in chains if I am at home, and then I will be whipped if I go out from the house without permission. So their skin is so dark...they are so free...and my skin is so white...because I am a slave and does not deserve to have the freedom of leaving the house without  permission.

My older clients....my teachers...like to see me do floor show with my partner, who is a ladyboy who has just been castrated -- with a small penis but no balls. We will hold each other tight, in 6/9 position, and use our tongue to lick each other's butt cleavage. 

She will use her tongue to open my pussy lip to sort swipe out my little penis clitoris, licking it again and again until it is fully blown into a mini penis. I will use my tongue to suck my partner's small penis, until it gets hard enough to fuck me in my face. We make sure that our bodies are neatly shaved without hairs, and in particular our pubic hairs must be completely removed. That makes us look like two little baby girls, and my teachers are very pleased over seeing me.....that once bright hardworking boy....playing the role of a submissive slave, and the two of us will be fucked by my teachers as a pair afterwards, after they have been sufficiently turned on.

I feel proud over having become a girl. During the last several years of my escort work, I have SUCCESSFULLY  attracted quite a number of boy students who used to be very hostile to me the first times they booked me for sex. At the beginning, these students came with a burning desire to punish me, to have me whipped and then to have me humiliated by urinating into my mouth and having me fucked in my asshole. Gradually, quite a few of them are apparently falling in love with me. 

They are sending me gmails fully of romantic, flowery oratory, vowing to love me, to care for me and to protect me for the rest of my life. Sometimes they book me just for simple relaxation at a deserted beach. There, under the sun, with the sand as our mattress and the sky as our blanket, we have lots of sweet chats, he holding me in his big strong arms and me kissing him on his face. 

My young students have grown up, and gradually they are treating me as their sweetheart, someone they can confide  in me, and they tell me about  all their secrets and worries. Had I been a man, I would never have had this chance of getting so close to a man's heart.

When my testicles were cut off ...for disobedience...in December 2014, I found afterwards, within weeks, that the tiny beard stubs which I used to find every now and then at my jaw and chins began to LOOSEN, as if they were withering plants with their roots having gone dead and dry. I plucked out my beard stubs one by one, very easily, and without any pain, because the beard stub hair capsules were getting so weak. I used to feel very embarrassed by this, because my boy students kept teasing me for 'looking like a eunuch' because I had no more beard.

But the skin at my jaw and chins has improved in complexion and texture, and the improvement is so significant that my clients like holding up my jaw with their hands, and then caress my jaw and chins, saying that my face is very smooth, and the skin pores where once there were hair stub leftovers have all closed up, invisible to the naked eyes.

The boys enjoy kissing me at my mouth now, holding up my jaw, and in those wonderful moments of being embraced....and loved...I feel so fulfilled as a girl, as a real girl.