To make me more girl and to strictly control my cock so my penis could never be allowed to get hard, I had over the past decade been repeatedly spanked as a routine by Papa, three of my schoolmates, Master, my students, my teachers and of course by nearly every client on mine at one time or another, so that I know every fine detail, procedure and method connected with the art of spanking a person into total submission, in a most womanly sort of way.
Much to my surprise, some men, about 15 to 20 per cent of my clients, are interested in having their butts spanked by ME. They are not unnecessarily sissy, like me, but just need, as they say, to play the role of a submissive woman/girl for an hour or so.....in bra, panties and lingerie no less...and then I will be paid not to be fucked or spanked by them, but instead they require me to stand tall and straight, whip or rod in hand, to have their butts or legs whipped until they beg for mercy like the way I often do....woooohwoohuh....pleaseee have mercy...but instead of crying out 'Sir...pleaseeee', they cry out and beg aloud, saying, 'Miss...pleaseee, I'd be obedient.'
AND THEN after they have been spanked or whipped by me, they all start having a strong erection, and then it is their turn to have me bound up and fucked -- but no spanking for me -- what I need to do is to ORDER them to fuck me harder. You might have thought that such clients are tame, meek and gentle....yes a few are....but some are not.... for they are the same ones who pay the club large sums of fees to SEE me being whipped, tortured and humiliated by some strong guys especially hired by them to have me fucked, as a sort of revenge, they say, which is a motive needed for them to get hard AFTER they have seen a live show involving me being whipped and humiliated.
As I said many times, escort work is very hard, and T-girls should think twice before having a full sex change surgery to do this kind of work, because some clients are really very freakish, to say the least.
Perhaps you may not understand why I NEED to be spanked or whipped on my butt before I am fucked by men. When I was growing up as a boy trained to be a girl at home, Papa often had me whipped on my butt or legs if I was not soft, feminine and obedient enough.
Gradually, I acquired this obsession to be physically punished first before I could derive that sort of unspeakably great pleasure while being fucked by men. I just couldn't get high...not to say achieve orgasm...without having been humiliated, punished or spanked by men first.
My students have all notice this, and they call me 'cheap' because of my reaction, but I just can't be turned on sufficiently without some sort of PAIN before inflicted on my poor buttocks.
One of the escort services most in demand is having the butt cheeks of ladyboy escorts spanked.
At both ends of the age range, old men and teenagers are especially interested in having the butt cheeks of us ladyboys spanked, because while we are being spanked with our legs wide open...and with us bending over a bed or table...the man/boy can have a good look as how both our penis and nipples react to the pain.
Although being spanked in painful, in many ways it is better than being fucked, because getting a man/boy hard is NOT easy as it sounds, and if we fail to get a client hard enough, he may complain to the club managers, and then we as submission ladyboys will be whipped hard for not doing our job well.
So being spanked is a service that we have to compete...beat...for, like at an auction. So it a client tells the club managers that he needs to spank a girl, all of us not having any booking will immediately rush to line up and lift up our skirt to see if the client is interested in our buttocks.
Some men/boys like to spank brownish butt cheeks, in which case the Malay and Philippines ladyboys will get chosen, but fortunately I have a large pool of clients coming from my students, schoolmates, teachers and neighbourhood friend, so I often succeed in getting selected to have my butt spanked.
Normally a wooden pad or a table tennis bat is used on my butt cheeks, so that my butt will get two pinkish patches even spread over both my butt cheeks after a 15-minute spanking session. But if a client a willing to pay more, he may choose to use a small but firm rod on my butt cheeks, in which case red lashes will be left at the end of a 10-minute whipping session. My boys students are especially interested in using the rod to have my butt whipped because in my days as their teacher, I made it a rule to use a small rod to hit the palm of any boy who failed in dictation, which they often did because of laziness. The boys say that from what they see,...I don't know... because I have to close my eyes and clench my teeth to take the pain...I seem to ENJOY being whipped more than being spanked, because if I am just spanked, my clitoris and nipples show no visible reaction, but if I am whipped, my nipples and clitoris are both seen to be hardening to become nuts.
In my part of the world, men/boys are never expected to go down on their knees to beg for mercy, and being spanked is strictly a punishment for disobedient wives and naughty daughters. Boys are not spanked, and if they are punished, they are usually whipped on their back or legs.
So my schoolmates and students delight in having me spanked on my knees. Before and after my castration, my naughty penis still got hard...that was hardening, not real erection...every now and then - quite beyond my control, but it just got hard when men/boys started verbally abusing me saying that I was a little sissy and I well deserved to have my penis cut off to become a girl.
I never ever told the boy that that was my penis wake-up call, but somehow they noticed it, and kept saying this, and then my naughty penis got hard -- without permission. Even now, with just that little bit of penis leftover lump as my clitoris, that little piece of meat still gets hard upon being touched by the magic of those words. So the boys get a good reason for having me spanked for getting hard without permission.
The night club allows the boys to have me spanked with a wooden pad if I am disobedient, at no extra charge. So the fact that the boys use such magic words to wake up my sleepy penis...now penis clitoris...gives them the right to have a FREE round of spanking for me...for 10 minutes...and how I hate those words, but they never ever fail to give my poor little penis, or simply clitoris, that needed strength to get hard, and alas, getting hard without permission.
(Being Spanked by Master is part of my daily life. Master has me spanked butt bare at precisely 6,30 am, half an hour after i have served Him breakfast. Sometimes He has me spanked with His slippers, but often with a table tennis bat. The spanking session lasts for 15 minutes and won't stop until my butt gets pink.
In the evening when Master is home from office, He will check whether i have done my cooking, cleaning, embroidery and other household chores to His satisfaction. If He finds certain faults, such as when the dishes are not clean enough, He will have me spanked again, this time with a rod, with possibly one or two lashes at the sensitive spots where i once had my castration -- very painful, but admittedly well deserved.
Usually if i give Master all the tips clients give me during my daytime work, He will forgive me for minor offences, but never the serious ones, such as not doing the best i can to clean and wash His feet.)
In my experience, it was impossible for me to forget my past life as a boy on a voluntary basis, which meant that I had to be trained to forget my past life so I could begin my new life as a girl.
One of the best methods thought out by my schoolmates and students to make me a real girl was to have me spanked while I was dressed and made up to be a DOG. My teenage students, in particular, like (still do) to have my asshole plugged with a fake, fluffy dog tail, and onto my hair is tied a hair band with two cute dog ears, so that I look like a human dog while I am on my hands and knees, crawling around and (as required) barking all the way.
In those early days in my MtF transition when I still had a naughty penis which got hard randomly every now and then, my schoolmates and students would require me to put on the fake tail and ears as soon as I was found to be getting hard without permission. And then I would be spanked in that particular costume, a situation which had the wonderful effect of making my otherwise hardening penis became soft immediately, drooping down as soon as I was spanked with a 'dog costume' on.
Now that my penis has been cut off, with just its tip being left inside my pussy to form a big penis-like clitoris, my clitoris gets INFLATED like a little balloon as soon as I am spanked...almost simultaneously... and that turns the boys on. As since my castration my skin is getting much whiter and no more hairs anywhere....not even on my pussy...the boys so enjoy having me spanked in this condition that I often feel their cum shots being literally shot at...drained onto... my back, breasts and face even as I am receiving my needed spanking to become more feminine, soft, submissive and timid.
When I was a male teacher, I purposely put on baggy trousers with pleats in front to hide my big, round butt from view. But as I was taking female hormones, that butt of mine sprang up from 33 inches to 37 inches during my university years. The baggy trousers I put on were often quite unable to properly get my bubble, female-shaped butt out of sight.
So sometimes at the school corridors, and on board a bus...when I returned to the university hostel from school...some naughty boys, having noticed my bulging butt, purposely pressed onto my back, supposedly by accident. I KNEW they were molesting me on purpose so as soon as any such act of deliberate molestation took place, I would get the culprits punished by sending them to detention or making them stand in class -- and they were always the same six or seven naughtiest boys with very horny looks on their faces.
Now that I am an escort, these boys come to have me booked at least once every week, and since they are now working with a salary, they are willing to pay to special fee of USD 500 to have me whipped butt bare for 15 minutes at least twice a month, and as there are seven of them, I get whipped 14 times per month from just these seven boys.
They said that I was SELFISH in hiding my big, round and PRETTY butt from view, and that I had made a mistake in not putting on tight trousers so that everyone at school could admire my pretty butt cheeks. 'Butt so soft , white and pretty...and you don't let us touch or even see it, eh !!' I kneel down to apologize ...I admit that it was my fault, but still such punishment sessions go on and on -- till now (sigh).
Before my castration in December 2013, I was often most disobedient and extremely boy in behaviour. I knew that once I had been castrated there was no turning back for me, and I tried desperately to act more 'boy'....choosing to sit with my legs wide apart instead of having them folded together like a girl....and I often masturbated at night to get my penis hard enough to cum, so that I could still retain bits of my manhood.
The made Master very angry because i had told Him that i would train hard to be as soft, feminine and submissive as possible. Yes indeed i eventually got punished by Master. Master had me spanked/whipped butt bare for 20 minutes first, so that my butt would turn pink or red from spanking, and then onto my poor butt was dripped hot war which covered those parts of my butt already made red and sore from spanking.
That kind of hot waxing, along with spanking, made my penis retract from pain into a very small lump, and after each such punishment session, my penis got ever softer and weaker, until in November my penis got so retracted and contracted that even if I stroked it for hours....literally for hours, from 11 pm to 2 am at night...it just could NOT get hard, not to say expand.
So one early morning in November 2013, i knelt down at the feet of Master and said, ' Master, i don't dare to get hard anymore...please cut off my balls...pleaseeee !!' Master smiled and said, 'Good girl, I can see that your penis is quite soft and small.'
He held and then squeezed my poor pee pee really hard, so that i moaned in pain, but i knew that Master was after all right : Since i was training to be a girl, i shouldn't really be allowed to get hard. My poor but naughty butt well deserved to be spanked and hot-waxed.
As ladyboys we were all born male, so that despite the removal of our penis and testicles that primeval, almost primitive, MALE drive to penetrate SOMETHING SOFT is deeply embedded in our consciousness.
There are just two ways to remove this male drive, this almost mad desire for penetration of some sort. One is to get the help of one of my co-workers and the two of us get double fucked by two separate rubber tubes, with their double ends being inserted respectively into our pussy and asshole.
We then push and pull those two double-end tubes, and through the co-ordinated pressure exerted by each one of us on the other, we get that peculiar MALE joy of taking the initiative, the lead and the drive to penetrate something soft.
The other way to release this inborn male-drive-induced tension is to get our butt spanked, preferably as hard as possible with a wooden pad, Then the pain we feel at our butt with each impact of the pad on our poor butt will EASE the tension we feel at that hollow little hole where once our poor little cock was rooted.
Personally I prefer getting spanked by a man to release this male-drive-induced tension, because after having been spanked by the strong hand of a man, I feel so soft, submissive and totally female. This double-ended-tube-penetration somehow increases the desire for male penetration and I wouldn't like to do this unless there isn't any man around to have me spanked to release THAT tension.
(Me : On my hands and knees in bed to receive my daily 15-minute spanking by hand/wooden pad/table tennis bat butt bare at the strong, determined and oh...so sexy...hands of my most respected, beloved and ohohohoh so lovingly cute Master.
Spanking is in my view most important in any effective feminization programme for T-girls like us. The harder I am spanked...by any male person, even if aged just 12 or 13...the more obedient I become.
During the first six months of my MtF transition, being spanked daily by Master helped in making my penis become much retracted...dwindling in size as it were... smaller and softer both in length and extension.
I was often so very worried about getting hard without permission from men, and daily spanking removed such fears because with each punishment session executed in the form of hard...yes...quite harsh and humiliating... spanking, my small penis became ever weaker, slumping and drooping way down -- it contracting just to a small, docile, harmless-looking lump after one year of continuing whipping/spanking at both my butt cheeks....yes very painful indeed...but very much needed to make me become the soft, timid, feminely submissive and dependent girl I have always wanted to be since I was a little child of 12.)
One night Master returned home to see that i was masturbating...getting my penis hard...without permission.
i knelt down to ask Master for His forgiveness, saying that i wouldn't dare to masturbate or get hard again. But Master was determined to teach me a lesson -- He had me locked into a wooden block, and i was stripped naked to receive my needed spanking to make me understand the importance of never ever getting hard without permission.
A big wooden pad was used to have me spanked on my poor butt....and i got spanked for nearly half an hour -- oh, poor me, my poor butt was bruised all over. I begged, moaned and cried for mercy, saying, ' Master, i won't masturbate again....i will make my penis as soft and small as possible...i won't ever dare to get hard...pleaseeee don't beat me up anymore.'
Fortunately i was forgiven, and since that time i never ever dare to masturbate even if Master and His friends were not at home.
(Me : On my knees at Master's bedside to prepare for my needed spanking for further feminization. Before receiving my needed spanking, i need to massage my own nipples to get them hard and erect, so that Master's hands will have that satisfying, bouncingly soft sensation when He caressively touches my hard nipples while my butt is at the same time being caned/spanked or whipped. My nipples, standing hard, tall and erect, are the concrete expressions of my total submission to Master as His ladyboy slave.)
(Me : Staff record picture kept in the files of one of the secondary schools I used to teach at. I was regarded as one of the best-looking male teachers at school, and attracted the attention of lots of female colleagues . That aroused great jealousy directed against me within the male teaching staff, because I was 'very much in their way'. After my castration, my male colleagues...teachers who I used to work with...are very eager to have my poor little penis whipped, squeezed and twisted as revenge for my having interfered with their dating activities in the past. I never dated my female colleagues, for obvious reasons. So I was actually innocent of the 'crimes' my male colleagues accuse me of.
But they just won't listen to my explanation. So even up till now...after the complete removal of my poor penis...my male colleagues keep having me booked to have me SPANKED as punishment of my so-called 'crime'.)
(Master may choose to have me spanked on the floor...on my hands and knees, doggy style...or direct in bed, whichever way pleases Him more.)
(Me - Stripped naked ...sometimes on my knees...and often in bed... to obediently await ...with my head humbly bowed low... my early morning 10-minute spanking routine )
When I began training to be an escort, I found being spanked just for the fun and pleasure of men most DISGUSTING. But Master explained to me that male pride and feminine submission did NOT go together, so being on my knees in THIS way to await spanking is an essential part of my growth from being a boy to ladyboy. Explained simply in plain English, a 'lady' is in effect a LAD, a boy who never grows up. and having my manhood totally eliminated is an important step for making me remain for ever a boy who would never grow up, and that in effect is a LADYBOY.
(Me - in matriculation class uniform. Because I was taking female hormones on a daily basis, I looked nice, in a pretty sort of way, and I was attracting a lot of unwanted attention from my girl classmates.
However, I could not date any girl at any time even if I had wanted to, because in the last two years of my secondary school, I had to serve three of my boy schoolmates as their sex slave so they wouldn't tell the school that I was a ladyboy in disguise as a normal boy. Those three boys knew the truth about my identity by having me raped one afternoon at a roadside temple when I was in form 4. Ladyboys are looked down upon as perverts in my part of the world and, being considered mentally unbalanced, we ladyboys are not admitted to government higher institutions of education under any circumstances. )
(Me - being fucked in my asshole by Master on 13 March 2013
When i was taken into custody by Master on 13 March 2013...for stealing money from Master's company by juggling the accounts...i was ordered to strip myself naked from the waist down and for the first time in my life, i was really penetrated hard and deep by a man, Master.
In a sense i was deflowered by Him, because He, Master, was the first man ever in my life who successfully stayed inside me for 20 minutes and i noticed that He had much of all eight inches of His penis hidden inside my asshole. When I was being fucked hard, I looked, felt ...and sounded...sort of odd because it just didn't look quite right that a nice-looking, well-groomed man ...me... was in bed moaning from the pain of being ass fucked -- and tearfully begging for mercy like a little girl.)
(Me - going to teach an early morning class at a secondary school located near the university where I studied history and literature. Actually I like (still do) teaching very much, because as you can see from this picture, I really looked proud and dignified in men's suit, and although I could not get hard even at that time, I felt that I really looked handsome --and I was walking tall 'like a man' to school to teach English to several classes of naughty boys.
I had a tremendous feeling of superiority, because although the boys were just several years younger than I was, I was far more educated...much more learned...and definitely (much) more good-looking than they were. I just couldn't help noticing that the teenage boys I taught were not just shabby in appearance, but very lousy and lazy in their school work
I couldn't help despising them, and they were accordingly strictly disciplined...made to stand in class or even spanked.... if they were found too naughty or noisy in class -- and those boys were so noisy all the time, so I punished them all by making the whole class stand up in the classroom for nearly an hour at any one time. Now, the boys are (still do) taking revenge on me...whipping and humiliating me ... for having been so strict on them.)
(There is an interesting video I just saw on the internet -it was about a TS teacher being penetrated by her students, which is a situation very much similar to mine. I want to share this with you so you will understand my situation, which was that although I did have a penis, I couldn't get hard under any circumstances - it sort of kept drooping way down, very soft and never ever got hard in the real sense even if repeatedly stroked.
You copy and paste this link http://www.tokyo-tube.com/video/168509/ニューハーフ教師 into Google Search and you should be able to see this video.
Ladyboys like me, even if qualified, are NOT allowed to teach anywhere at any school in all regions across Asia. If a teacher is found to be a ladyboy, she is...like me...most vulnerable to sexual molestation and/ or rape by her students -- and she is unable to lodge any complaints to the police because she has herself violated basic legal codes of moral conduct, a criminal offence which by itself carries a jail sentence of up to two years in most countries.)
With the right hairdo, correct eye-shadow linings with mascara, and shades of pink, red and white powdered here and there ...at the right places...at my cheeks, cheek bones and forehead, Master and the night club manager are trying their very best to promote...to re-launch... me as a teenage, naive and rather stupid, primary school educated escort girl just sold by my parents to the night club -- from an inland village.
As a result of that final cut...having my penis removed...I am losing up to half of my former clients. Even some of my former students won't care to come back to have me booked. Master says that since business is so bad, He is perfectly willing to let me go free at any time i so wish.
But i am no longer an uneducated university graduate...i have burnt or destroyed all my diplomas and certificates...i cannot find a job, and i still need money to buy pretty clothes, shoes -- and rather expensive female hormone pills. So i got down on my knees...kowtowed to both Master and the night club manager...to tearfully beg them to let me stay. i will try my best...i will be more obedient...please don't kick me away...i have nowhere to go...so eventually Master let me stay, and on 2 March 2016, He arranged for me to be sold to the night club as a slave/submission escort for another year, until 1 March 2017.
Picture Below : This role reversal game is one that most students of mine like playing with me. While I was formerly their teacher, now I play the role of a naughty girl student who is naughty and is being punished by having my butt first spanked, and then fucked -- both at my asshole (particularly my asshole) and my new pussy.
My boy students, all of whom in my view speak (very) poor English, will first ask me to read aloud a simple primary school textbook comprehension passage which is so simple in vocabulary and syntax that ordinarily I would have laughed and brushed it off as a childishly nonsense joke if I had been tested on it in those days when I was a teacher of English. Now that I am a submission post-op ladyboy escort, I would NEED to mispronounce many words just to give my boy 'student teachers' an excuse to have me spanked.
Thus I HAVE to, for example, pronounce 'English' as something like 'Inglush' to merit...in the words of my 'teachers'....a 10-minute-long spanking session...to be administered on me butt bare. Then while being spanked...usually with a table tennis bat...but on occasions with a small rod if the boys pay a bit more to the club manager...I am taught to pronounce correctly such simple words as 'man' instead of 'mun' which I am FORCED by the rules of the game to mispronounce just to please the boys.
The boys like to have my humiliating English lessons recorded as video in their hand phones, and then this poor me, as in the picture below, is circulated and shared among my other students back home in Malaysia. The video begins with some pictures of mine in men's clothes...jacket, tie and trousers...and then a brief story of how I was castrated to work as an escort is shown on screen...and that is followed by a full video of how I am being spanked and then fucked as punishment for my having mispronounced simple English words.
Last year, some students forced me to give them my email password, and then they uploaded such videos of mine onto YouTube. That caused my YouTube account to be permanently suspended.
This game seems a sort of child's play, but feedback from my students shows that THIS is what is needed to arouse them so they can get hard enough to penetrate me. In this way, despite the removal of my penis which has led to the drastic drop in the size of my clientèle, I am still able to get by because of my willingness to play this humiliating...but needed...game to arouse my students.
(Now that my penis has been cut off, I can no longer do penis sparing with my clients. Instead, I am training to use my breast cleavage to massage the penis of my clients, so as to help release their tension)
Perhaps you may not know that spanking can easily help to get the muscles lining my asshole and my pussy contracted and taut, so that the penis, upon entry to my holes...usually after I have been spanked...will sort of feel it being captured and trapped in the pulsating and contracting canals at both my asshole and pussy, thereby giving the client much fun and pleasure.
In this sense, that is why the night club administration must have me trained to get used to being spanked. That is not just to boost the male pride of my clients, but to help give them more pleasure so they will keep coming back to have me booked.
Which i do need because i am still heavily in debt because of all the expensive surgery and skincare expenses i have been incurring over the past three years, quite apart from the the interests i must paid for the funds I embezzled from Master's company.
(Me - With my hair bound like a child, with cute ponies, I am regularly fucked by a former schoolmate of mine, who I once reported to the discipline teacher for having purposely patted me on my butt at a school corridor.
Consequently he was spanked in class...in public...for indecent behaviour. Now I need to BEG him to touch me on my butt, and then have me fucked, because if my service is not good, and he complains to the night club manager, I will definitely be whipped for disobedience.)
At my room, I usually sit on a sofa...totally naked...to await being fucked by the client who has booked me.
Periodically, the night club manager will arrange for me to be sold at an auction as a slave girl at the highest bidding price to any man for a period of one week. This is in a way better than serving clients on bookings because during that one week I need only to serve just one man.
Clients have to see my pussy first before they pay for my services. They all know that I am a ladyboy, and they want to see that my pussy is tight and neat enough to arouse them. In particular they have to make sure that my pussy hole isn't too large or loose.
So when they say, 'Open your legs !' I will immediately spread out my legs M-style, and then turn open my pussy lips to let them see what I have got. When they see that inside my pussy there is a penis-like clitoris, they are usually most delighted, and I am always successfully booked because of my having a bit of my poor penis left INSIDE my pussy.
Below is one of my escort profile pictures in one of the escorts directories I am registered with. My eyes ...without shadow linings and cosmetic makeup...are not particularly large, and as you can see, the wonders of modern facial feminization surgery have revamped my face, making me look much younger than I really am.
My sex reassignment surgeries...along with my facial feminization surgeries...have cost tens of thousands US dollars. i am therefore again heavily indebted to Master -- this time not because i had stolen his money...which i did in early 2013...but because I have borrowed quite a lot of money from Him. i am unable to pay back to Master the loans He gave me.
So Master has decided that i must work as an escort for another year to pay off the debt I am owning Him. Consequently, i have just been sold as a submission/slave escort to the night club I am working at for another year...for a lump sum the exact amount of which I am not allowed to know...until 1 March 2017.
I have been on MtF transition for nearly three years and before that, which was March 2013, I had been a part-time teacher for four years while I was studying for a B.A degree in literature and history. That would add up to seven years so that 7 years ago, the first batch of boys I taught in form 4 are now all working adults.
It is this first batch of form 4 students who have been witnessing every step of my MtF transition. They have been having me booked ever since Day 1 of my MtF transition -- from the very beginning when I first worked as a pre-op ladyboy escort/streetwalker...with a full cock... then as castrated shemale escort...with both testicles removed...and, eventually at present , as a post-op ladyboy /female escort... me having had my penis cut off just a few months ago, in addition to having had a major facial feminization surgery to look younger.
With the help of strict, tough but useful female slave training... a concoction of six different types of injection-type female hormones administered at my belly and butt daily... multiple skincare and whitening products... three-times-a-day submission spanking and 14 different kinds of surgery...from top to bottom...I have been gradually transforming myself from a proudly aggressive, educated adult male teacher speaking fluent English into... at this point in time...a most timidly submissive, totally uneducated (my diplomas and academic credentials were all destroyed or burnt !) albeit rather pretty-looking childlike girl with teen looks and creamy white skin --unfortunately, though, I must speak in public in shamefully ungrammatical English to suitably fit in with what men require from me in my role as a feminine, soft and obedient...but ignorant and stupid... submission female escort.
In the meantime, the fist batch of those form 4 boys are now all grown-up men all of whom have had plenty of experience in having humble escorts like me punished and fucked.
Because I started taking female hormones at the age of 13, my normal growth had been stunted, and I (most) unfortunately stopped growing any taller or bigger at the age of 14 plus, so that, at just a bit over 5'3" 102 lbs, I am now just up to the shoulders of most of these first-batch form 4 students of mine, physically looking very small...indeed like a child... when standing at their side.
After these boys...these men really...have whipped me on my butt...like a naughty little girl...they like to press me down at their feet ...on my knees... so I would suck their penis while I am all naked with a butt embarrassingly made red..sometimes prawn-red because some boys are really tough on me... from having been spanked/whipped by them. In my view, the job of an escort consists in just one element, which humiliation...humiliation and humiliation to the nth power.
Ever since that day when i personally burnt all my certificates and diplomas to show my submission to Master, He is beginning to have more trust in me. With all my academic credentials having been destroyed by fire, I am just like any other escorts in my region -- uneducated, dependent, timid and feminine to the point of not being able to make decisions for myself.
Master and one of his close friends (who at one time had hired me as His slave) have drawn up a plan by which i will undergo various surgeries to acquire younger, teenager sort of looks. My past education was to prepare myself to be an independent adult, but my new training under Master's guidance is for me to be revamped as a child - dependent, naive-looking, and submissive to the point of willingly accepting those punishments that are normally reserved only for little girls, such as being spanked on my butt and doing corner time with my hands holding my ears.
In my daily life now I am just treated as a child, and it is only when I am blogging that my intellect is allowed to work like an adult. I have thought of writing about other things online, so that my accounts won't be suspended for uploading pornography. But my reading material is strictly censored by Master, and i am reading mostly books connected with domestic issues, such as cookery, cleaning, dressmaking, embroidery and babysitting...all girl stuffs...and I simply have no material anywhere at my room (with no books whatever and being locked from outside) and my computer (with all my emails first checked and then deleted - no documents of any sort are allowed to be uploaded or stored).
Master says that i had been TOO clever --i was not just disguising myself most successfully as a male teacher for so long, but i also shrewdly stole much money by juggling the figures of the consolidated, most complicated ledger accounts of Master's company. After the removal of my penis, I am now being introduced at the night club as a post-op ladyboy escort with just primary education, so it is necessary for me to act convincingly as an uneducated girl by speaking only broken English.
Since I am not allowed to read newspapers and magazines, I naturally can't correctly answer any question relating to current social issues brought out by my clients in the course of our conversation, so I do act in very stupid ways as far as my new clients are concerned. When a client says, 'Get that stupid little girl with pretty white skin for me to fuck', everybody at the night club immediately knows that is me, and one of the assistant managers will immediately strip me naked and ask me to kneel down at the bedside to wait for the client to come fuck and/ or spank me.
Some clients purposely find an excuse to have me whipped by requiring me to answer certain questions. ALL of these questions are so easy that. even when I was 10, I could correctly answer them without having referred to a single book.
There are questions such as 'Is Korea in Hong Kong ?'Is Africa a district in Singapore ?' And then some men are trying to teach me English, saying in their own broken English that the way I introduce myself to them, 'Me Malaysia girl' is grammatically wrong.
The night club manager says that I MUST give the wrong answers to all these questions, and I must make an effort to speak ungrammatical English, so that my stupidity and ignorance is confirmed. And my stupid answers, such as 'Yes Korea on Hong Kong'...'No Singapore next Africa' ...and my deliberately messy English, even after correction by the client...such as 'Girl Malaysia me'...gives my clients the feelings of superiority needed for having me spanked on my butt for stupidity and ignorance, and that spanking...turning my butt cheeks red...is in turn needed for FUELING the rock hard erection which they need to have me penetrated.
This is the nature of my work now...very shameful indeed...I used to write about my experience as an escort in Google + and my profile is being permanently suspended because of my having said what I just said here. I know I was wrong...I am sorry.
Picture A : My Back View -- my butt has been considerably broadened and made bigger to form two outspread, extended bubbles as a result of a butt enhancement surgery carried simultaneously with my sex reassignment surgery in November 2015.
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Picture B : My frontal view - the complete removal of my testicles in December 2013 have enabled me to absorb large amounts of female hormones of different sorts - without the necessity of using androgen (male hormone) blockers.
My cup size is now at D +, at an impressive bust measurement of nearly 39 inches -- fully six inches larger than it was in November 2013 when I still had not been castrated -- and I was then using plenty of androgen blockers to block the secretion of testosterone from my testicles into the blood stream, thereby stunting the growth of my breasts, limiting my pre-castration bust measurement to just 33" or 34".
The same student examined my small, wrapped-up cock in November 2013, just one month before my castration. He told me that he had already noticed that my cock was very small when he peeped at me while I was peeing at a school toilet.
As he was stroking my small cock out of extreme curiosity...and with me making up to look like a little girl as he had requested...I finally told him the truth, which was that I had been taking female hormone since childhood so my penis couldn't grow any longer or bigger since the age of 14. Furthermore, to make me look more girly, Papa wrapped up my cock with bandages so my penis would remain soft and couldn't get hard.
Many middle-aged clients...including some of my former secondary school teachers...like me to play the role of 'Daddy's Good Girl'. Simply having me penetrated does NOT turn them on, and I am increasingly being required to play this 'Little Girl' role after my sex reassignment surgery. These middle-aged men will require me to meet them in bed with clothes on, and they themselves will strip me naked bit by bit, piece by piece -- and they are obviously turned on when they come to taking off my bra and panties.
After stripping me naked, this Daddy will take me, his little girl, to the bathroom to take a bath, and the excitement of bathing a small-sized girl like me, so very much like a little girl with my ponies, turns him, Daddy, on yet again, so then when he gets me dressed again...helping me to put on bra and panties...he is reaching his sex drive climax which he releases by having me spanked for, as he says, 'speaking poor English' and 'not studying hard enough at school' . Amid my begging for mercy...promising 'Me study hard, Papa !' my Daddy will have me fucked in all my three holes...mouth, pussy and asshole...until he reaches the orgasm of ejaculating lots of cum onto my face and boobs.
While I am being penetrated by Daddy...their penis getting so very hard after I have played the role of their little daughter...this thought keeps getting through my mind - that is...might I myself have got hard if some girl had got the right trick to turn me on ? Probably, my poor little penis...now cut off..might well have been able to get hard after certain role-play sessions like these. Some clients tell me that they normally can NEVER get hard, and it is only after I have played my Little Daughter role that they can get hard to a point which they never ever would have thought possible. Might my own penis have got hard with the right role-play session ?
Below is the profile picture I am using online to attract customers. As I said, I need to look like this, with such teenage looks, to attract...and hold...my clients.
(Me - Made up to look like a little girl as requested by one of my clients, a 17-year-old teenage boy who I taught four years ago when he was 13. I caught him peeping at me from the threshold gap beneath the toilet door when. during one morning recess, I was taking off my trousers to sit down to pee like a girl, which was the way I had been trained to pee at home.
When I caught him, he still innocently asked me why I needed to sit down to pee. I didn't tell him the truth...that couldn't be revealed anyway...so I just told him that he had no right to ask me that, and furthermore he would need to be punished for peeping at me while I was urinating. Then I noticed that he was holding a hand phone ...I checked it and found inside a picture of mine...with me being butt bare and showing my small, clean-shaved cock in full view.
I asked him why he had taken such indecent picture of mine, and he explained that he had already observed me for several times at the toilet, and he was attracted by my bubble-looking butt...he wanted to keep my butt in memory by taking that picture. I got angry at what he did and said, and then I paid his parents a home visit, during which the boy's mother authorized me to have the boy spanked for such rudeness.
Now four years on, he paid the night club manager to have me made up and dressed like a little girl so he could have me spanked as punishment for my dishonesty and hypocrisy in not having told him the truth about me when I caught him peeping at me at the toilet in that morning four years ago.)
Although I am an adult in my mid-20's, I find that I could more easily get men aroused by making up and dressing up like a teenage girl, and an UNEDUCATED, NAIVE little girl at that.
Most of my clients, particularly my former teachers and students, have told me time and again that they like having me booked because I look, behave and am OBEDIENT like a little girl. My small body...with my small shoulders, hands and feet...makes acting like a little girl very easy for me.
Before having me spanked, men like having me bathed first, and then I need to put on something really sexy as my underwear-- and then with my hair bound up in ponies like a little schoolgirl, I need to BEG men to have me spanked so I can change from the naughty boy I once was...disguising as a male teacher (with a fake beard too)... teaching boys in senior secondary school...to become the obedient girl I so much want to be at heart.
Most men are not not very verbal, not being able to speak well in ANY language, not to say English, so when inviting them to have me spanked and fucked, I must humbly speak in pidgin English or vulgar dialects , the sort of working-class language I used to despise --just to please and interact with them. When men are satisfied that my body is smooth and soft like a baby's....my face naive-looking like a little girl's....and I sound stupid enough like a primary school educated village girl ...by speaking broken English...like 'me holes tight...me touch'....they will turn hard, in this very twisted sort of unnatural way.
ALL such playacting, teen makeup and slavish obedience are needed to turn men hard, because,...strange as it may seem... some men cannot get hard in any other way.
Spanking is amazingly effective in making me more and more submissive. When I was in senior secondary school, I tried speaking like a boy by using the word 'fuck' quite often in my conversation with my schoolmates, and I felt so proud and 'man' when using that word.
But when I became the sex slave of three of my schoolmates...to keep their mouths shut about my true identity as a ladyboy with breasts...I was often spanked by the boys for crying out 'Fuck you' when they were penetrating too brutally into my asshole.
Throughout my MtF transition, I am reminded very often...indeed TOO often...that I must not use the word 'fuck' for the simple reason that whereas boys are encouraged to fuck girls as often as possible, I must not fuck any girl nor even be allowed to get hard, because I am a ladyboy, not a boy. My clients, particularly my students, like seeing my poor penis dramatically shrink in size...retracting into a messy lump... right in front of their eyes.
After I had been spanked/whipped on my butt, my penis acquired a miserably loose, dangling and 'way down' very sad look, which however pleased men immensely, but which nevertheless made me feel so ashamed of having such a penis. That was one major reason...the humiliation of having such a miserably small, soft and useless penis...why I MUST cut off my penis at all cost, even if that means in effect my earnings as an escort have to be lower because I no longer have my cute little pee pee to please my clients.
Men normally don't like to see me struggle too much while I am being spanked, so that they like having me chained at my ankles while I am receiving my punishment for any act of disobedience they could think of to make me deserve such pain, such as 'not opening my legs wide enough for fucking'...'forgetting to address them as 'Sir''.....'daring to wear trousers when I should be in skirt' ...and any other plausible reason. At home if there are guests, I will need to have my legs chained, so the guests will know that I am in training to be a slave, and I could be whipped if they liked for disobedience at any time if needed.
After I had been castrated in December 2013...for being too boy and aggressive...my small penis CONTINUED to be seen every now and then to get hard, particularly after men have massaged, stroked or just touched my nipples, butt and thighs.
My penis did not really get hard in the truest sense of the word 'hard', because it never ever did get hard enough for penetrating any girl....in fact, I had NO experience of ever having fucked a girl because I simply couldn't do that...but my naughty pee pee did get firm and could be felt to be hardening after men had caressed my sensitive spots, particularly my nipples.
But as a submission ladyboy escort I was not supposed to get hard at all in any situation, so that if I was found to be hardening, clients would usually pay Master/the night club manager a bit more fee to have me whipped for getting hard without permission. I had explained to my clients that I couldn't control it, but men....particularly my teenage students...never ever forgive me for getting hard.
The gadgets for punishing me...be they whips, rods or pads...are hung at the back of the bedroom door...and when the client has (still does) a spanking request, I will need to go to the door to pick up the rod/whip/pad needed....hold the rod/whip/pad with my mouth...get down on my hands and knees...and then I will receive my punishment either on my knees in bed or simply doggy style on the floor. The spanking will last about 10-15 minutes...depending on how much fee the client has paid... and if required, I myself need to keep counting the number of lashes I am receiving to show my absolute submission.
Such punishment DOES hurt, but I have to accept the fact...well established beyond any doubt... that girls really need to be spanked to be submissive and feminine. Indeed, sometimes my butt gets so SORE from having been whipped that I need to stand to type the computer keyboard while I am writing my blog posts such as this one.
When I was a castrated shemales, many...sometimes most...of the lashes impacted on my poor little penis...oh so very painful...and that was another reason why I must have my penis cut off. How could my small, just-2-inch soft penis stand such excruciating pain ? Now that my penis is gone, it does not mean that I am not spanked...being spanked is part of my job...but at least the lashes are directed only at my butt cheeks...painful still...but NOT soooooo painful as having my penis whipped the way it had been !!
If a man/boy is spanked butt bare, that is usually regard as a violation of human rights in many countries. But having a girl...particularly an escort...spanked is almost a standard routine in most countries. My continuing injection of female hormones of six different sorts...three times a week at my belly...has made my butt quite pretty looking.
It is now round, very white and soft, and its flesh keeps bouncing when for example I am being hand spanked. When my boy students put on on their knees to be hand spanked, images of myself being in shirt and trousers...as a male teacher... teaching them at school often keep flashing through my mind. I feel so very odd...almost wacky in a way...to be in such a situation, receiving such punishment to please the boys.
The boys usually like taking picture of my red bottom after I have been spanked, and then once my bottom has gone so red, my knees feel so weak, and when the boys shout at me to kneel down, I just do that very quickly and naturally...yes being spanked is one of the best ways to remind me that I am no longer a man....no longer educated....no longer a teacher...I am now a girl...without a cock...am an escort...I must kneel down to accept further...but needed ...spanking and other forms of humiliation to make myself a better...more feminine and obedient...girl.
It is a rather unpleasant thing that many of my clients remain students, because of the fact that I had been a part-time teacher at several secondary schools while at university. The structure of my clientele ...with young students in the majority...has remained basically unchanged since Day 1 when I became an escort.
Remembering those days when I took them for school picnics and outings, my students like having me booked for one whole morning or afternoon when they can take me out to the country for a picnic - of sorts.
At isolated, remote locations, my students will strip me naked, and there in broad daylight, they enjoy giving me suspension whipping as punishment for my having THEM punished for running around off limits and doing mischievous things while on school picnic.
Because it is quite a crowd ... six or eight boys at any one appointment...who gathers around me as my hands are bound and hanged onto to an overhanging tree branch ...and I need to be totally naked...I am so scared, embarrassed and actually terrified by those terrible, almost numbing sounds of 'ooohoooh'...'aaahhaaa' or 'wowowooo' sounds made by the boys while my blouse, skirt, bra and panties...socks and shoes too...are stripped off my body...one by one...piece by piece...so I have asked the club manager to require the boys to have me blindfolded before they strip me naked, so at least I don't have to tremble or shake all over so much while I am being stripped --because after all I don't need to see the the faces of the boys.
As I am being spanked/whipped while being suspended, I have to moan uncontrollably...as usual...from the pain inflicted on my butt -- and sometimes also on my breasts, depending on whether the boys have paid the club the fee needed for doing that to me.
The boys require me to moan as loudly as possible, so that my moans will be recorded loud and clear on their hand phones, and then they like as usual to ask me why my voice has become so female...so high-pitched...since my castration. So while receiving those painful lashes from my students, I have also to patiently explain...amidst my cries, moans and begging for mercy...how I underwent surgery at my throat...at my larynx...to have my Adam's apple shaved and vocal cord extended to attain the normal, femininely high-pitched voice that I have now.
After I have been spanked/whipped for about 15 very long minutes for having dared to pretend to be a man for so long...and a male teacher too...I am usually released from my suspended position to get down on my hands and knees to be fucked by the boys in pairs, with one boy fucking me in my face while another boy having me fucked in my pussy and/or asshole.
I know this kind of 'work' as an escort is no work at all, but since I have already burnt all my diplomas and certificates...they are useless to me anyway since they bear the male name of the dead me, the man who is now gone forever....I have no skills to make a living....this kind of work is the only job I can find and I need the money to prepare for my retirement a few years from now to start some sort of business on my own.
So for a brighter future...and to get used to being a girl anyway...I guess this kind of suspension whipping in public is, though painfully humiliating, a much needed routine to make me develop the sort of feminine inferiority complex and womanly fortitude which, in turn, is needed to remove any trace of male pride I may still have.
Picture Below : My 'business' was very good when I was a castrated shemale escort, me being fucked by AT LEAST twelve men on a daily basis in the period from January, 2014 (one month after my castration) to October 2015 (a month before my penis was cut off). But it seems that men/boys are interested ONLY in girls who are ON MtF transition, and as for girls like me who have completed that transition....having the penis removed eventually...we seem to have little attraction for them.
Therefore, although my service charge is now below USD 100 per hour (inclusive of fucking in all my holes...mouth, pussy and asshole), spanking and ONE special service at the client's discretion, which could be anything from licking his feet/asshole to drinking his urine so his male pride could be boosted through feminizing me in almost unspeakably degrading ways. such as having bells clinched onto my nipples and having me whipped if I dare to carelessly move my body to make those bells ring while I am on my knees to go through ANOTHER form of humiliation.
Money comes hard after my sex change surgery, so that Master has sold me as a housemaid ... for a lump sum paid direct to Him, with commission being deducted by the night club manager... to some rich men for short periods of several weeks or a few months.
As mature, successful men are often married, so I am usually taken into homes with a mistress who is in charge of supervising my housework, which consists mainly in cooking, cleaning and helping to look after the children of the man. The mistress of the house never knows that I was once a man or an escort, and I am introduced into the household as a Malaysian village girl with primary school education, speaking poor, ungrammatical Thai and exceedingly poor, broken English.
The girls in the family are usually kind to me, and sometimes allow me to share room with them so we can do girl talk, but the boys are very strict on me, requiring me to kneel down to do corner time if I am disobedient. Even if a chair is just a few feet away from them, the boys, to assert their male pride, will say, 'Jennifer, get me that chair' and after school, the boys require me to help take off their shores and wash their feet, and quite often have me scolded for being 'stupid and useless' for not being able to understand even primary school English comprehension passages.
Of course I understand everything there...even university material is no problem for me...but as an uneducated maid, I have to feign ignorance and stupidity to hide my real purpose in the household, which is to satisfy my temporary, short-term Master.
My temporary Master will have sex with me in the comfort of His home when other family members are not home, and He often takes me to his office to do 'cleaning jobs' so He has the convenience of having me served Him in different ways with none of his family members,...especially His wife and His daughters...being around. Having me bought as His sex slave for short periods gives my temporary Masters the convenience of having me served Them without the need for Them to visit the night club where I am working at. Successful, mature men do NOT like to be SEEN by anyone to be linked with anything so indecently immoral as buying sex from an escort like me.
Some of these (but not all) mature men...my short-term Masters...knowing that i was a teacher and am now being humiliated daily by my own students, think that it is a good idea for their own boys to have me disciplined so they can grow up to be 'real men', instead of being a 'sissy' like me. So in many cases, They often let their teenage sons know WHY i am working in the household as a maid. The female members of the family...wife and daughters...are never allowed to know this secret.
One thing most convenient to the sons of my temporary Masters is that i can NEVER get pregnant, so those boys can have me fucked for as many times as they like without any danger of unwanted pregnancy. So if my Master has three sons, i will have four Masters, all of whom can discipline me in any way they like, such as not allowing me to bathe my own body, and i must be bathed by the sons of my Masters, and those sons could be as young as nine or ten !!
Then when the female members of the family are not home, the boys will ask me to kneel down, and they will have my butt stripped bare, so they can spank me first before i am fucked. It seems so very odd...exceedingly shameful...that i am bathed by a little boy as young as 10, and yet i have to call Him 'Sir'....must kneel down to be spanked butt bare...and then it just doesn't look right, that a big girl like me...in my 20's, and having been a secondary school teacher...should be towed around the room in my maid's uniform -- by a primary school pupil !!
Such temporary slave contracts help to supplement income. The job is very shameful but it is helping me to pay off the debts i am owning Master for having spent so much on my sex-change and feminization surgeries.
(Me : on my knees butt bare to await having me butt cleavage carefully inspected ...and then entered into... by a 15-year-old son of one of my temporary Masters)
Picture Below : A teenage son of one of my temprary Masters had my head pressed down and tight so my face could be evenly showered over with His cum loads....the cum of young boys is very smelly, like a fish's , so I need to close my eyes to force open my mouth to eat their cum. The younger a boy is, the more eager he is to make me eat his cum....to assert his male pride...so I MUST try to my best to eat every drop of his cum, or I will be stripped butt bare and then whipped for disobedience as a maid.
The sons of my temporary Masters are not allowed to know that I was once a man and a school teacher, so they treat me just like any ignorant, stupid village girl forced to do household 'sex work' because of ignorance and poverty. So they often SHOUT at me, saying,' Kneel and eat my cum, Stupid !!' --if I don't get down on my knees immediately my poor butt is bound to be whipped.
The boys like having me reported to their mother if I am found to be 'disobedient' or 'impolite', and any offence I cause the boys will mean me being whipped either on my butt or legs by their mother, the mistress of the house who is allowed by contract to whip me for disobedience as a maid.
Picture Below : ( My students usually like to have my breasts stroked and caressed all over, repeatedly and forcibly, before having me spanked.
They like having all their clothes on, but with me being totally or half-naked -- just to show their male superiority, pride and dignity, and to remind me that I am in training to be a girl, and am at the same time a humble, dependent escort without pride and dignity.
The job of an escort is in terms of social status very low, more or less like a female slave, though it helps me to get through my MtF transition and it is continuing to support my livelihood -- and I really need money to pay for all those expensive clothes, makeup, skincare products and hormone pills that I MUST have in my daily life as a re-born girl.)
Since March 2013, being spanked butt bare is my daily routine, either at home as part of my feminization training, or as a required duty in my work as an escort. Gradually, this humiliating form of discipline...so unpleasant whichever one looks at it in any picture...is able to give me RELEASE from the overwhelming ITCHINESS which I feel after my body, particularly my boobs...have been caressed and stroked by men/boys.
There is a uncontrollable NEED for me to be spanked on my butt just to release those burningly hot passions aroused all over me...particularly at my bottom...and when the rod/table tennis bat impacts on my butt cheeks, I, yes, moan in pain and beg for mercy - but at the same time that tension in my head, and the grippingly hot sensation at my butt cleavage are sort of being let out, like steam from a kettle with hot water boiling inside it.
Sometimes, Master and His friends will ask me to put on very sexy outfit, and then they take me to the backyard of the house to have me first spanked, and then fucked there - in the glory of the setting sun, so that i often feel ashamed...with cheeks flushed red...and so that they can shoot videos of how am being penetrated and humiliated to become an obedient slave girl.
Master, His friends and their teenage sons like to see me strip myself naked...taking off my clothes piece by piece...bit by bit...with my bra and panties removed first...and then they like to have me spanked with my skirt lifted way high up my waist, revealing my lily white butt under the bright sun light.
As I am standing there, I feel transfixed by the very tranquility of my surroundings, with the light breeze blowing from the trees gently caressing my breasts and nipples, which stand erect and firm. And then it is always the little boys...the youngest only aged 10...who come forth first, using their fingers to poke my newly constructed pussy. I feel so itchy, and then I fold up my legs. Which causes Master to feel angry, saying,' Open your legs or I will whip the hell out of you !!' So i kneel down, apologize and then i close my eyes while Master spreadeagles my legs so the boys can penetrate me in turns. 'Moan so we know you enjoy it !' Master commands, and so i moan, begging for mercy -- the men and boys keep laughing as they start removing the rest of my clothes, and they take pictures of my body from different angles - to remind me that i AM, and always will Be a girl.
And then I normally need to get down on my hands and knees doggy style -- to await my needed spanking to become more submissive so I can learn to make men happier at my job as escort.
(Me - Getting ready to be spanked butt bare at the backyard of Master's Residence.)
(Me - Being caned by a 14-year-old student of mine in June 2014, six months after my castration. He had paid the club manager a large fee -- at USD 600, which was three times the normal fee (USD 200) charged for having me caned butt bare with no clothes on, so he could see how my butt cheeks got red in front of his eyes.
When I was teaching him at age 11 at form 1, I paid his parents a home visit to request his parents to keep him at home...off the streets... after school so he could do housework to become more gentle and obedient - and so that he could have more time for studying to improve his grades, instead of getting himself darkened like an African by playing football every day after school. 'You see, my own skin is fair and smooth, and my grades were good because I never played on the streets,' I told his father who, having taken a long look at my very small and white arms and hands, said, 'Yes...I will make his skin as white as yours -- guarantee to school success !'
His parents did as I had advised by keeping the boy at home to do housework like a girl, and the boy's grades improved, and he now has very fair skin, almost like mine, but then he had a grudge against me for 'taking away his freedom as a boy'.
Now three years on, he was punishing me for having such white, smooth and delicate skin, and yet still having a penis. I admitted to him on my knees that I had been wrong - boys should be taught in a different way from girls, and the way I myself had been brought up....always staying at home to do either housework or reading...was suitable only for bringing up girls. He wouldn't forgive me despite my apologies, and I was caned butt bare for 15 minutes...very painful...for having taught him with wrong methods.)
Remembering those days when I took them for school picnics and outings, my students like having me booked for one whole morning or afternoon when they can take me out to the country for a picnic - of sorts.
At isolated, remote locations, my students will strip me naked, and there in broad daylight, they enjoy giving me suspension whipping as punishment for my having THEM punished for running around off limits and doing mischievous things while on school picnic.
Because it is quite a crowd ... six or eight boys at any one appointment...who gathers around me as my hands are bound and hanged onto to an overhanging tree branch ...and I need to be totally naked...I am so scared, embarrassed and actually terrified by those terrible, almost numbing sounds of 'ooohoooh'...'aaahhaaa' or 'wowowooo' sounds made by the boys while my blouse, skirt, bra and panties...socks and shoes too...are stripped off my body...one by one...piece by piece...so I have asked the club manager to require the boys to have me blindfolded before they strip me naked, so at least I don't have to tremble or shake all over so much while I am being stripped --because after all I don't need to see the the faces of the boys.
As I am being spanked/whipped while being suspended, I have to moan uncontrollably...as usual...from the pain inflicted on my butt -- and sometimes also on my breasts, depending on whether the boys have paid the club the fee needed for doing that to me.
The boys require me to moan as loudly as possible, so that my moans will be recorded loud and clear on their hand phones, and then they like as usual to ask me why my voice has become so female...so high-pitched...since my castration. So while receiving those painful lashes from my students, I have also to patiently explain...amidst my cries, moans and begging for mercy...how I underwent surgery at my throat...at my larynx...to have my Adam's apple shaved and vocal cord extended to attain the normal, femininely high-pitched voice that I have now.
After I have been spanked/whipped for about 15 very long minutes for having dared to pretend to be a man for so long...and a male teacher too...I am usually released from my suspended position to get down on my hands and knees to be fucked by the boys in pairs, with one boy fucking me in my face while another boy having me fucked in my pussy and/or asshole.
I know this kind of 'work' as an escort is no work at all, but since I have already burnt all my diplomas and certificates...they are useless to me anyway since they bear the male name of the dead me, the man who is now gone forever....I have no skills to make a living....this kind of work is the only job I can find and I need the money to prepare for my retirement a few years from now to start some sort of business on my own.
So for a brighter future...and to get used to being a girl anyway...I guess this kind of suspension whipping in public is, though painfully humiliating, a much needed routine to make me develop the sort of feminine inferiority complex and womanly fortitude which, in turn, is needed to remove any trace of male pride I may still have.
My school principal (the man with white hair) retired two years ago, and he was among my first clients.
He has required me to upload this picture of his so everybody at the school where he once administered would know that although he is now a much older man, he is still sexually potent and is still going strong at that.
As I said before, I was a very well-behaved student while at school, scoring top grades and kept staying in the top five position in my class -- so that it was unthinkable that I should ever be punished in any way for poor discipline, least of all receiving corporal punishment.
But just one month before the my S P M exam (which is the School Certificate Exam in Malaysia), one of the three schoolmates who...in return for keeping my secret identity as a ladyboy had made me his sex slave... talked to me and he said that he wanted to 'sell' me to a friend of his for one night for a sum of money which he would need to settle a gambling debt. I told him I was a boy, and this kind of thing usually involved only girls, and so I couldn't agree to that. That boy threatened to report me to the school principal so I would be expelled from school for hiding my ladyboy identity. But I ignored him.
Several days later, while I was attending class, my school principal entered the classroom and said that he wanted to search my body for a wallet which that schoolmate of mine had said I had stolen from him that morning. I couldn't allow my class teacher or the school principal to, as it were, frisk, my upper body because their hands would easily feel that I had breasts. So in desperation I sobbed...knelt down...and admitted that I did actually carelessly picked up a wallet from the ground but out of fear had already dumped it into the river outside the school.
As my conduct had been excellent, most of my teachers made an effort to persuade the school principal to believe in what I said, but dumping into the river a wallet picked up within the school compound still required punishment. It was decided that the school principal should personally administer the corporal punishment by having me spanked with a table tennis bat The teachers were very kind to me and they also successfully persuaded the principal to have me spanked behind close door, and after school, so that the embarrassment I would suffer would be kept away from the watching eyes of other students.
As usual, I should be allowed to be spanked with me underpants on, but as I had to sit down to pee I usually didn't put on any underwear beneath my school trousers, and in my confusion I forgot to remove the bandages that had my cock bound tight...by Papa...to make my penis smaller and softer, Behind close door, I pushed down my trousers and bent butt bare over the principal's work desk to await being spanked.
Then the inevitable question from the principal : 'Why aren't you in underwear....what happen to your cock ?' I told the principal a lie that I had just hurt my cock in an accident so I had it wrapped up in bandages and was not in underwear so I could pee more easily. Before having me spanked, the school principal said, 'I know from your very white, smooth skin that you must be an obedient boy...but you made a bad mistake in dumping somebody's wallet into the river....so you must be punished.'
Then the sound of 'bak'...'bak'...'bak' reverberated in rapid succession in the quiet of the principal's room for ten times...and at the end of ten such painful 'bak's', I felt the principal's groping hand ran all over my butt....'Did it hurt, boy ?' I sobbed and begged for mercy, saying, 'I will be more obedient next time....please don't spank me anymore !' The principal asked me to pull my trousers back up and then let me go...I didn't look back...I was so afraid.
Now years later, that same principal is my client. As he touches me on my butt, saying 'so white, so round'..... and he caresses me on all my four ckeeks....face cheeks and butt cheeks...he keeps telling me that he had suspected that I was a ladyboy from the first moment he saw me butt bare. A boy couldn't possible have such creamy white and smooth skin. Furthermore, as the bandages were falling loose while I was being spanked, he saw that my cock was so very small --too small for a boy of my age. So as soon as he had heard that I had been castrated to work as an escort, he had me booked immediately.
Now he is crossing the Malaysia-Thailand border to have me spanked at least once a week. It is an almost surreal feeling, being spanked and then fucked by a much older man in his late 50's -- and he also happens to be my school principal. He told me that after he had seen through...and read through...my MtF transition process, he has changed the way he is bring up his only son, who is still in his teens because of his late marriage. He is now purposely encouraging his boy to do more outdoor exercise...do more hard manual work...school grades are now in his view not as important for a boy as growing up to a normal, healthy man.
While I am being spanked, the principal requires me to say, ' I am a sissy...my skin is so white and smooth because I stay at home to do women's work all day...I don't qualify to be a boy...please spank me...fuck me ... make me a girl....Sir'' Strangely, as I am being spanked... and saying such words...my pussy gets ALL wet. I like being hugged by old and much old men like my principal because they treat me like an innocent, stupid girl. There is an unspeakably SATISFACTION in being touched all over my body...particularly at my nipples and butt...by the caressively soft and light strokes of the skilful and tactfully agile hands and fingers of such old men, because they all have had long years of experience in having sex with women --and caressing their body at the right spots.
When I was a male teacher I had thought that only naughty BOYS would ever be spanked or whipped anywhere, whether at school or at home. It is true that while being brought up as a girl at home, I was sometimes whipped by Papa for not properly doing housework, but I always tried to be very careful in preparing for Papa the food he enjoyed...and I kept the house meticulously clean...so Papa couldn't have any EXCUSE for having me whipped on my butt.
But since March 2013, when I began my MtF transition, I am being spanked...still AM...on a daily basis, not because I do anything wrong, but just because everybody says that I need to be spanked for the simple crime of having disguised as a boy for so long, and most shamelessly pretended to be a male teacher in men's suit and tie to teach boys at a boys' secondary school.
I DO admit that while I am being spanked, my penis...when I still had it...did get hard...but that was just a bit of hardening, not the sort of hardness that could be seen...and it was so unfair to have me spanked and whipped just to PREVENT me from getting hard. My penis was so soft, small and weak...how could I have a fuckingly strong erection ?
Some of my fellow-teachers...who used to be my colleagues at the school where I taught...are also my clients. Most embarrassingly, whenever I am booked by any one of these teachers, the first thing they say is quite often this :' Take off your panties...I want to make your big white butt really pink and red today.' The so-called 'crime' I am supposed to have committed for deserving such spanking is ridiculously the fact that at lunchtime at school, the male teachers gathered together to have lunch at a restaurant, and like other teachers, I sometimes...but really not too often...used the word 'fuck' just like any other male teacher at the lunchtime gathering.
The teachers say that I was shamelessly rude, since I had such a weak small penis, I shouldn't have dared to use the word 'fuck'...'Fuck what ?' They say, ' You are a girl....you can only be fucked...how can you fuck anybody ? ' To make myself look more girl, I often get my facial cheeks rather pinkish, and my colleagues say, 'Now I am going to make your butt cheeks as pink as your face to teach you what it means to be a girl.'
My colleagues like using their waist belt to have me punished on my butt. Being spanked by my male colleagues...who used to sit at the same teaching staff room as I did...gave me a tremendous feeling of inferiority. They require me to say : "Fuck is a word I am not allowed to use' immediately after I receive one lash on my butt, and as I usually get 10 lashes in each session, I have to say 'Fuck is a word I am not allowed to use' ten times over.
I am NOT on call 24/7. Far from it, I am spending much time learning to be a girl by doing all the housework chores generally...and traditionally...reserved for women and girls. Cooking for Master is my prime responsibility, but sometimes i just can't manage to prepare a meal delicious enough to whet Master's appetite.
I sometimes, for example, make a mess of the dinner meals by overcooking the meat/vegetables -- or carelessly making the fish chips too salty. Master is most understanding and won't like to severely punish me, but that does not mean i can go unpunished.
In case of such minor offences as not mopping the floor properly or unnecessarily delaying the time for meals to be served, Master...most kindly..will just require me to use a wooden pad to spank my own butt.
i am NOT allowed to stop paddling my own butt unless i am allowed to do so. As might be expected, I don't normally use too much force in spanking my own butt, and so it takes quite some time...sometimes as much as an hour...for me to turn my butt from white to pink, which is the colour acceptable to Master for stopping my self-spanking punishment.
After I have spanked myself for negligence, disobedience or sheer laziness in doing housework, I will need to get down butt bare on my knees to do corner time, with my skirt lifted way up my waist. Any guest who happens to be visiting Master while i am doing corner time is able to have clear view of my butt.
Master's friends...all men...like making comments on my butt, saying that it looks round, cute and smooth. Between March 2013 and November 2015...when i still had my penis with me in between my legs...Master's friends liked chatting with Master on how to make my penis smaller and softer so there wouldn't be so many complaints from clients saying that I was getting hard without permission.
Some suggested hot or cold water should be poured onto my penis before I was fucked to forestall any ... most undesirable.... movement of my, as they said, 'naughty' penis. Eventually the consensus of opinion was that if ever I was found to be getting hard without permission, I would be spanked for ten minutes with a wooden pad until my butt grew red, and then I would have to kneel down on the floor to do corner time for one hour, during which three clothes clips would be applied onto my penis -- one each on its tip, and two on its shaft, that is one each on its left and right.
Therefore, after I eventually got castrated and became a shemale in December 2013, any client who found me getting hard without permission would have me spanked butt bare first, and then the club manager would give him three clothes clips to have my poor penis clamped tight to make me remember the importance of keeping my penis soft and small all the time --since after all I was a shemale, not a male.
One thing you might not know was that male COURAGE and AUDACITY seem to directly related to the testosterone secreted by the testicles. When I was still having a full cock...with my balls still there...I sometimes shouted back at men for attempting to soften and weaken my penis, calling them 'perverts' -- and at times I kicked them at their legs. Although Master had me whipped afterwards for being so rude to men, i challenged Master by attempting to jump down from the second floor of the house onto the backyard garden. Master was worried about my complete lack of progress in feminization, and consulted ...online across Facebook ...with some friends in Germany and the United States.
The Germans and Americans all told Master that i could be made to become more feminine, soft and obedient by having my balls cut off. Furthermore, the men on Facebook said, if Master would have me spanked for 10 minutes...three times a day...once in the morning...once at noon...and once before i go to sleep...i would soon lose my aggressiveness, assertiveness and pride...all male character traits...and those would soon be replaced by the more desirable, typically feminine traits of gentleness, submission and humility.
Indeed that was almost miraculously true since within weeks after my castration, when men drew a chalk circle on the floor for me to kneel down inside it to be spanked butt bare on the floor, the only resistance I could ever put up was sobbing, crying in pain and begging for mercy....I struggled but I dared not take one footstep outside the circle because my whole body was trembling all over..losing my balls also in effect caused me to lose all male courage, assertiveness and pride.
(Me : On my knees to await my needed, well-deserved spaning for having disobediently over-eaten during my post-castration strict dieting period.)
About two months after my castration...in February 2014...my weight suddenly increased from 105 lbs (my weight in December 2013, when I was castrated) to over 115 lbs, shooting up to nearly 118 lbs (!!) at the time when I was clinically assessed by a gynecologist, a specialist doctor in women's medical problems. Since I was taking heavy doses of female hormones, I had been referred to a doctor for women's ailments.
The doctors said that this problem of increased weight was caused by hormonal unbalance ...a natural end-result of the cutting off of the supply of fats-burning testosterone from my balls...and that could be easily solved through strict dieting, so that Master only allowed me to eat vegetables and drink fruit juice for over two months, from early February 2014 to mid-April 2014.
I got very hungry so I sometimes stole some pork and beef from the kitchen and I ate it all in secrecy at the kitchen behind close door. My disobedience was discovered by Master one evening in mid-March, and i kowtowed to Master to apologize for my poor discipline. In addition, I was given my admittedly well-deserved spanking.
As you can see, my body did look rather fat...and my legs unsightly...and awkwardly... big (!)... and so indeed my punishment was both needed and well-deserved. Following that nearly 30-minute...very painful... spanking session, I became more self-disciplined and really only took vegetables and fruits for my everyday meals. Consequently, my weight got back to normal...at about 102 lbs...towards the end of March 2014.
Since then, and up till now...March 2016... I am on a vegetarian diet, which helps me to get myself...my face, in particular... trimmed down to what you see in this picture.
I had known all along since childhood that although deep down I very much wanted to be a girl, being a girl in most societies confers the status of 'Second Class Citizen', in that men enjoy so many advantages...and are given so many priorities....in most societies that women and girls --even if just living decently as wives under a legal marriage --often end up being sex slaves in the bedroom.
Therefore I had tried my very best to live a double life. I had been taking female hormones on a daily basis to give my body and face those pretty, soft features and characteristics that I love (still DO LOVE) so much, but on the other hand I would prefer to live as a working male at day to get all the freedom, advantages and convenience that men and boys enjoy by birth. Being a man seems to be able to have such DIGNITY and PRIDE.
For example, it is so very NATURAL for a woman or girl to obediently get down on her knees at a man's feet to suck his penis....kneel on her hands and knees to be spanked butt bare...allow her man to penetrate her for as long as he likes in all her holes....pussy, asshole and mouth...and be made to do corner time, like a child, if deemed disobedient. But for a man or boy to undergo these....even one single scene of what has just listed....would be unthinkably humiliating, and is considered almost worldwide as 'gross violations of human rights'.
Therefore, I had kept my breasts carefully bound and pressed down with bandage wrappings....put on long-sleeved shirt to hide my soft, slenderly white arms....wore baggy trousers to hide my round, bubble-like buttocks...and purposely put on brownish skin cream to make my skin acquire a mannish, tanned look...and went so far as to put on over-sized shoes....(size 7 on my size 5 feet)....just to make my feet look 'more man'.
But soon after I had got a permanent job at an import/export firm as Administrative Assistant at the Accounts Department, I lost control of myself, and recklessly embezzled up to USD 50,000 for buying, among others, jewelry, trendy clothes, expensive beauty makeup kits, Germany-made female hormones pills for my personal use while crossdressing as a girl to seek sex with men at night.
When THAT...along with my secret ladyboy identity...with breasts... was discovered by my boss (now MASTER) of my firm, I was taken into His custody at His residence to await being sent to the police. Master consulted four of his close friends to decide on what to do with me, this 'Ladyboy Thief', as they called me.
Master said He would like to sell me to Dubai at the Arabian Peninsula as a concubine of some oil-rich sheik to get back the money i had stolen from Him, but His other friends said that perhaps i could be sold as a shemale escort to work at a Thailand night club, and i would be made to work HARD as a slave escort to earn as much money as possible to pay back...in the shortest possible time... to Master the huge debt i owned Him.
Master and his four friends allowed me to choose between being sold to Arabia or southern Thailand, which is near my birthplace in northern Malaysia. If i refused to take at least one of these options, i would be sent to the police immediately to face a maximum jail sentence of five years at a MALE prison. The horror of living as an inmate in a MALE prison...facing daily sexual harassment and molestation...gave me no choice so i agreed to work as a shemale escort in southern Thailand.
I had to attend a '6-month feminization course' before i would be sold to a night club in southern Thailand as either a shemale escort (if i was obedient in the course of my training) or as a castrated shemale escort (if i was found to be disobedient). To show my obedience and co-operation, i immediately signed a slave contract with Master to show Him my absolute servitude towards Him. Then still in men's shirt and trousers with a tie, i was ordered to strip myself naked to be inspected by Master and His four friends.
As you can see from the picture below with me being neatly in men's clothes, i looked quite handsome as a man, and stripping myself naked to have my body inspected for five men...altogether as a group...was an embarrassing experience, because when i crossed dressed as a girl to find sex at night, I always dealt with just ONE man/boy.
i therefore sort of took my time...hesitant every once a while...while unbuttoning my shirt and pushing down my trousers....and when my underpants and trousers were down at my feet, i felt so very shy and tried to hide my small cock with my hands. THAT....hiding my cock with my hands...was my first offence as Master's sex slave, and soon after this picture had been taken, i was whipped with cane butt bare for 15 minutes for disobedence...very painful...and when Master and his friends saw that my cock as a whole....balls and penis...retracted and contracted to become an unsightly small lump, they clapped hands.
Master then measured the length of my penis after retraction and contraction...three inches plus...He knitted His eye brows, saying.' Too long...it must be made to shorten to about two inches.' And then He took out a cock lock....a steel capsule-like America-made device for cock-binding...and then screwed it onto my cock, and doubly pressed the wires at my balls and my penis to forcibly press them down to the smallest possible lumps. i yelled in pain and begged in tears for mercy, and as a standing a mirror was placed in front of me... as i was removing my men's clothes to be spanked, fucked and then had my cock screwed inside a cock lock....i saw a pretty-looking image of a young man being humiliated....deprived of 'human rights'...and i sobbed. Master and his friends encouraged me to sob or cry all i can, because, as they say (still do), 'That's what girls should do.'
Two months into my feminization programme, i was told to email my students to come over from northern Malaysia to southern Thailand to have me fucked like a girl. At first, there was not a single reply, but when I sent this picture over to the naughtiest students in my class, responses...still just a few...came. Those were the dark, tall and strong boys sitting at the back of the class, they never doing any homework and always being made to stand in class for boisterously chatting to disrupt my teaching.
To arouse this first batch of my clients...all at 16+...Master ordered me to put on the same male clothing as i did the first time when He had me spanked. Instead of putting on brownish skin cream, i was instructed by Master to whiten my skin with L'Oreal skin whitening cream, and all the hairs on my body,,,including and especially my pubic hair...was carefully and neatly shaved off, so that when i removed my trousers for my first clients...four lazy, dark and stupid-lookig boys...i saw that they had a rock-hard erection when they saw me get down on my knees with my trousers down to obediently accept my first ever spanking by my students. When i finally kowtowed to them for having disguised as a man to teach them, my punishment was swift and harsh.
In Master's presence, i dared not move when the boys took turns to cane me on my bare butt -- but while i was being humiliated i felt an irresistible feeling of PLEASURE running down from my brain nerves to those of my penis, which got hardened as i moaned and begged for mercy.
Picture Below : Despite all the surgeries and training programmes I have gone through, it is very hard for me to forget that I was once an educated man with a good university degree, and that I was a male secondary school teacher who had been praised by both parents and the school administration for maintaining strict, good discipline in class.
At times when I was alone at my bedroom...which is locked from the outside just in case I might lose self-discipline and sneak away unnoticed...I pass my time by looking at my own body, taking self-pictures, selfis, of myself, and then this is always on my mind when I masturbate...caressing my own pussy and butt...and using my fingers to turn myself on by drawing small circles round and round, like a merry-go-round, around my firm, erect nipples.
I am thinking, even if I could never get hard when I was a man, wouldn't I have been better off if I had kept my cock...continued to work at day as a man...and then could I have been happier if I had remained a crossdresser the rest of my life ?
Then as soon as I have come up with the conclusion that I should have remained a man by having my breast surgically removed, my door bell rings, and I have to get ready to be fucked by any client who has just paid the club manager to have me fucked, spanked and/or humiliated 'to (as my clients say) make me more girl'.
They may be much older men in their 60's or young teenage boys who are barely 13. Whoever my client is, the first thing he usually does to me is to unbutton my overcoat and shirt...which clients like me to put on because of my male past...and then, like plucking water melons, the men/boys will sort of force my breasts out...sort of spilling then out from my unbuttoned shirt... and have my nipples sucked --or even bitten if I am found to be disobedient.
As soon as my nipples, my breasts and my round butt are touched by men, I feel an inexplicable sensation running all over my body, and that makes me both hot and happy. Yes I need to be a girl, because only as a girl would I be treated and caressed like a girl, and in that manner, I can get that needed inner pleasure which I have been craving for since I started crossdressing at the age of 13.
(Me , with my breasts being sort of plucked out from my male shirt by a 14-year-old student of mine who is my regular client -- this little boy keeps having my nipples clamped with clothes clips as punishment for my having deceitfully pressed my breasts down to simulate the flat male chest when I was his teacher.
I am often in mental conflict when I am humiliated by my students because my memory as a male teacher tells me that this boy MUST be punished...well-deserving of being publicly spanked by me in class... for such indecency....having my breasts toyed with in this embarrassing manner...but paradoxically, on the other hand I NEED to be humiliated by men/boys to satisfy my innermost desire to be controlled and disciplined by men/boys.
I ALWAYS feel the strange...but natural to me...need to be submissive to men/boys, which is truly weird indeed because I myself was born male and also had a cock. It WAS a cock, though it was under-sized and also dysfunctional. Isn't it true that because I have breasts, I need to be fucked, humbled and be always submissive to men ? It doesn't look right and fair, does it ?)
Picture Below : My 'business' was very good when I was a castrated shemale escort, me being fucked by AT LEAST twelve men on a daily basis in the period from January, 2014 (one month after my castration) to October 2015 (a month before my penis was cut off). But it seems that men/boys are interested ONLY in girls who are ON MtF transition, and as for girls like me who have completed that transition....having the penis removed eventually...we seem to have little attraction for them.
Therefore, although my service charge is now below USD 100 per hour (inclusive of fucking in all my holes...mouth, pussy and asshole), spanking and ONE special service at the client's discretion, which could be anything from licking his feet/asshole to drinking his urine so his male pride could be boosted through feminizing me in almost unspeakably degrading ways. such as having bells clinched onto my nipples and having me whipped if I dare to carelessly move my body to make those bells ring while I am on my knees to go through ANOTHER form of humiliation.
Money comes hard after my sex change surgery, so that Master has sold me as a housemaid ... for a lump sum paid direct to Him, with commission being deducted by the night club manager... to some rich men for short periods of several weeks or a few months.
As mature, successful men are often married, so I am usually taken into homes with a mistress who is in charge of supervising my housework, which consists mainly in cooking, cleaning and helping to look after the children of the man. The mistress of the house never knows that I was once a man or an escort, and I am introduced into the household as a Malaysian village girl with primary school education, speaking poor, ungrammatical Thai and exceedingly poor, broken English.
The girls in the family are usually kind to me, and sometimes allow me to share room with them so we can do girl talk, but the boys are very strict on me, requiring me to kneel down to do corner time if I am disobedient. Even if a chair is just a few feet away from them, the boys, to assert their male pride, will say, 'Jennifer, get me that chair' and after school, the boys require me to help take off their shores and wash their feet, and quite often have me scolded for being 'stupid and useless' for not being able to understand even primary school English comprehension passages.
Of course I understand everything there...even university material is no problem for me...but as an uneducated maid, I have to feign ignorance and stupidity to hide my real purpose in the household, which is to satisfy my temporary, short-term Master.
My temporary Master will have sex with me in the comfort of His home when other family members are not home, and He often takes me to his office to do 'cleaning jobs' so He has the convenience of having me served Him in different ways with none of his family members,...especially His wife and His daughters...being around. Having me bought as His sex slave for short periods gives my temporary Masters the convenience of having me served Them without the need for Them to visit the night club where I am working at. Successful, mature men do NOT like to be SEEN by anyone to be linked with anything so indecently immoral as buying sex from an escort like me.
Some of these (but not all) mature men...my short-term Masters...knowing that i was a teacher and am now being humiliated daily by my own students, think that it is a good idea for their own boys to have me disciplined so they can grow up to be 'real men', instead of being a 'sissy' like me. So in many cases, They often let their teenage sons know WHY i am working in the household as a maid. The female members of the family...wife and daughters...are never allowed to know this secret.
One thing most convenient to the sons of my temporary Masters is that i can NEVER get pregnant, so those boys can have me fucked for as many times as they like without any danger of unwanted pregnancy. So if my Master has three sons, i will have four Masters, all of whom can discipline me in any way they like, such as not allowing me to bathe my own body, and i must be bathed by the sons of my Masters, and those sons could be as young as nine or ten !!
Then when the female members of the family are not home, the boys will ask me to kneel down, and they will have my butt stripped bare, so they can spank me first before i am fucked. It seems so very odd...exceedingly shameful...that i am bathed by a little boy as young as 10, and yet i have to call Him 'Sir'....must kneel down to be spanked butt bare...and then it just doesn't look right, that a big girl like me...in my 20's, and having been a secondary school teacher...should be towed around the room in my maid's uniform -- by a primary school pupil !!
Such temporary slave contracts help to supplement income. The job is very shameful but it is helping me to pay off the debts i am owning Master for having spent so much on my sex-change and feminization surgeries.
(Me : on my knees butt bare to await having me butt cleavage carefully inspected ...and then entered into... by a 15-year-old son of one of my temporary Masters)
Picture Below : A teenage son of one of my temprary Masters had my head pressed down and tight so my face could be evenly showered over with His cum loads....the cum of young boys is very smelly, like a fish's , so I need to close my eyes to force open my mouth to eat their cum. The younger a boy is, the more eager he is to make me eat his cum....to assert his male pride...so I MUST try to my best to eat every drop of his cum, or I will be stripped butt bare and then whipped for disobedience as a maid.
The sons of my temporary Masters are not allowed to know that I was once a man and a school teacher, so they treat me just like any ignorant, stupid village girl forced to do household 'sex work' because of ignorance and poverty. So they often SHOUT at me, saying,' Kneel and eat my cum, Stupid !!' --if I don't get down on my knees immediately my poor butt is bound to be whipped.
The boys like having me reported to their mother if I am found to be 'disobedient' or 'impolite', and any offence I cause the boys will mean me being whipped either on my butt or legs by their mother, the mistress of the house who is allowed by contract to whip me for disobedience as a maid.
In the course of my training to be a girl, Master discovered that through having my butt spanked hard, He was able to get my small, tight asshole sort of opening up...getting wider and more accommodating to the penis...and my small penis retracted to a smaller size if the cane directly impacted at my butt cleavage. So despite my begging. my spanking sessions went on.
Picture Below : The Chinese cheongsam, or 'chi pao', is the favourite dress that clients require me to put on before having me spanked. The bottom of this cheongsam is in the form of a flap that can be easily lifted up, like lifting up the cover of a can, and once lifted up, my buttocks are fully exposed to view - for spanking.
Each time this flap at the back of my cheogsam is lifted, I feel so very helplessly dependent on the mercy of the man/boy holding the rod/table tennis bat that is ready to be used on my poor butt, and in those days when I still had a penis, I heartily felt my penis sort of retract backward a bit as soon as this flap of my cheogsam was lifted up.
My students liked to use their fingers to feel how soft my penis had become when I was being spanked by them. In fact the harder they spanked me, the softer, weaker and smaller my penis seemed to be becoming.
And then I felt so very girl when I saw the penis of my students hardening and enlarging right in front of eyes, even as my own penis was softening, retracting and contracting just beneath the loose-hanging front flap at the bottom of my cheongsam.
Picture Below : ( My students usually like to have my breasts stroked and caressed all over, repeatedly and forcibly, before having me spanked.
They like having all their clothes on, but with me being totally or half-naked -- just to show their male superiority, pride and dignity, and to remind me that I am in training to be a girl, and am at the same time a humble, dependent escort without pride and dignity.
The job of an escort is in terms of social status very low, more or less like a female slave, though it helps me to get through my MtF transition and it is continuing to support my livelihood -- and I really need money to pay for all those expensive clothes, makeup, skincare products and hormone pills that I MUST have in my daily life as a re-born girl.)
Since March 2013, being spanked butt bare is my daily routine, either at home as part of my feminization training, or as a required duty in my work as an escort. Gradually, this humiliating form of discipline...so unpleasant whichever one looks at it in any picture...is able to give me RELEASE from the overwhelming ITCHINESS which I feel after my body, particularly my boobs...have been caressed and stroked by men/boys.
There is a uncontrollable NEED for me to be spanked on my butt just to release those burningly hot passions aroused all over me...particularly at my bottom...and when the rod/table tennis bat impacts on my butt cheeks, I, yes, moan in pain and beg for mercy - but at the same time that tension in my head, and the grippingly hot sensation at my butt cleavage are sort of being let out, like steam from a kettle with hot water boiling inside it.
At home at Master's residence, i am in training to do all sorts of work...cooking, cleaning, embroidery and sewing...that girls should be good at doing. i find sewing and embroidery most difficult of all, since i am short-sighted but Master won't allow me to put on glasses. i am being de-educated, which means that i am not allowed to read books, newspaper or anything online that is unrelated to the women's jobs i am being trained for.
Master wants me to become not just obedient and feminine, but also ignorant and stupid, so that men can more easily control and discipline me -- and so that i won't ever complain about this or that because of so-called rights, pride and dignity which i must NOT have. i am not allowed to speak or say anything in the presence of Master or His friends. Master is helping me to get used to my new life as an obedient, ignorant and stupid girl by not allowing me to speak correct, grammatical English without prior permission.
Every late afternoon when Master is home from work, He will require me to do corner time for about half an hours, all naked, and then while i am on my knees, i need to spread out my butt cheeks to give Master, or his friends...or their teenage sons...easy access to my asshole and my pussy, whichever hole they like having me penetrated.
Sometimes, Master and His friends will ask me to put on very sexy outfit, and then they take me to the backyard of the house to have me first spanked, and then fucked there - in the glory of the setting sun, so that i often feel ashamed...with cheeks flushed red...and so that they can shoot videos of how am being penetrated and humiliated to become an obedient slave girl.
Master, His friends and their teenage sons like to see me strip myself naked...taking off my clothes piece by piece...bit by bit...with my bra and panties removed first...and then they like to have me spanked with my skirt lifted way high up my waist, revealing my lily white butt under the bright sun light.
As I am standing there, I feel transfixed by the very tranquility of my surroundings, with the light breeze blowing from the trees gently caressing my breasts and nipples, which stand erect and firm. And then it is always the little boys...the youngest only aged 10...who come forth first, using their fingers to poke my newly constructed pussy. I feel so itchy, and then I fold up my legs. Which causes Master to feel angry, saying,' Open your legs or I will whip the hell out of you !!' So i kneel down, apologize and then i close my eyes while Master spreadeagles my legs so the boys can penetrate me in turns. 'Moan so we know you enjoy it !' Master commands, and so i moan, begging for mercy -- the men and boys keep laughing as they start removing the rest of my clothes, and they take pictures of my body from different angles - to remind me that i AM, and always will Be a girl.
And then I normally need to get down on my hands and knees doggy style -- to await my needed spanking to become more submissive so I can learn to make men happier at my job as escort.
(Me - Getting ready to be spanked butt bare at the backyard of Master's Residence.)
(Me - Being caned by a 14-year-old student of mine in June 2014, six months after my castration. He had paid the club manager a large fee -- at USD 600, which was three times the normal fee (USD 200) charged for having me caned butt bare with no clothes on, so he could see how my butt cheeks got red in front of his eyes.
When I was teaching him at age 11 at form 1, I paid his parents a home visit to request his parents to keep him at home...off the streets... after school so he could do housework to become more gentle and obedient - and so that he could have more time for studying to improve his grades, instead of getting himself darkened like an African by playing football every day after school. 'You see, my own skin is fair and smooth, and my grades were good because I never played on the streets,' I told his father who, having taken a long look at my very small and white arms and hands, said, 'Yes...I will make his skin as white as yours -- guarantee to school success !'
His parents did as I had advised by keeping the boy at home to do housework like a girl, and the boy's grades improved, and he now has very fair skin, almost like mine, but then he had a grudge against me for 'taking away his freedom as a boy'.
Now three years on, he was punishing me for having such white, smooth and delicate skin, and yet still having a penis. I admitted to him on my knees that I had been wrong - boys should be taught in a different way from girls, and the way I myself had been brought up....always staying at home to do either housework or reading...was suitable only for bringing up girls. He wouldn't forgive me despite my apologies, and I was caned butt bare for 15 minutes...very painful...for having taught him with wrong methods.)
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